dont tell me im wrong cause......

[themommy160]

Don't tell me I'm wrong cause I already know. Why don't you just mind your buisness? These are the feelings that I hold deep inside, the feelings I am so afraid of. Why am I afraid? u ask. its because I never in a million years thought that I could be so insensitive and cruel. I am a bitter woman one sour lemon. But ask me do I care and the answer is yes ! I have desired to be Gods woman for a long time and tried to please Him only to end up failing everytime, I know we fall and the lesson is for us to get back up again,but as I do I find my self back at square one all over again only to find myself angry at God because He didn't move in the way I wanted Him too, and this is not fair seeing that He has truly show me mercy and grace. Am I selfish? Yes. Dishonest? AT TIMES. ANGRY? Definitly. Unforgiving? Yes but I don't want to be. I'm hurting more than you know right now, I just want to be free, unafraid and consistent a true believer one with personal relationship. God help Help me to let go, help me to start new. As I have said time and time again, I need ur help. Tell me the truth show me myself and create in me a clean heart.. I beg of you