-
In dire need of a break
- Jan 22, 2009 at 7:30 AM
- By
- Comments (8) Total Views (94) Everyone can see this journal post.
Ok so things are really messed up right now. Financially we are screwed, they are wanting to repo my car, we are only late for january's rent but they have sent us an eviction notice, in the middle of fucking winter without 30 day notice. Yea they can fuck off we aint movin! They want to shut my power off. We can fix the power issue with my piddly pay check tonight, at least fend them off another couple of weeks I HOPE. They are charging me double for my damn phone so dont know if I can keep that on, have cell phones, no home phone. I swear to fucking god if one more bill comes in with someone screaming give me money I'm going to explode. My furnace doesnt want to stay running even though we just got a hundred gallons of fuel, reason numbers 1-10 on why our rent is late. I try to take this shit one day at a time but it just doesnt help. I just cant get shit paid. I owe the people we are renting our dd's flute from money because they dont send me a damn bill for it and if they dont send me a bill I dont remember to pay the idiots. Yea they are wanting to take that back now. I cant let that happen because dd will be heart broken if she loses her flute. I'm NOT letting her get hurt because we are having financial difficulties. To top it all off my depression is kicking my ass all over again. Yea its real great when you think you have it beat then suddenly your right back to square one. I've got to find a way to get my damn head back on straight before I lose my fucking mind. And lord I cant even touch on how fucked I've been on here. I'm saying shit to people and then totally forgetting about it later. Of course not many are liking me to begin with and where I would usually care I just dont. I'm being a total bitch and just not giving 2 shits. I'm not getting enough sleep at night because the insomnias back and my sleeping pills have NO affect on me at all.
To top all this shit off my kids are growing out of their cloths and I dont have money to buy them more. My 7 year old is throwing hourly tantrums when he's home, hell just threw one over a shirt as I'm typing this. Wanted to wear a t-shirt OVER his sweat shirt. Yea like I'm letting him go to school dressed like that!
I swear to god I just want to lay down and sleep for a month. My mom died 3 years ago and right now I'm missing her like crazy because she was my rock, she was the one who could keep me steady. I've been lost without her and thats only showing more now.
Lord I could continue this for hours just to release it all. Sorry its already been so long. I'm just really stressed out and over tired and all that fun shit.
Comments:
Her school would have extra if she played the damn drum lol Hell our electric company gives NO extentions, they dont work with you at all. I cant even call them because if your on dissconect and you call them about it but cant do a check or credit card payment over the phone right then and there they seriously move UP your dissconect! Thank god taxes are coming soon. Not that its going to help much. We have to buy a new matress for our bed because ours is falling apart, our oldest actually has a hole in his matress so he needs a new one, we have to insure our car if the damn thing isnt repoed first. Yea lifes a blast lol Oh and we dont qualify for government assistance except medical for kids. I can get medical but it will cost me $50 a month for me and dh and I dont even have that! Whew it just goes on and on and on and on lmao
I know it may be hard to think of this right now, but check craigslist for mattresses... Sometimes you can find basicly new ones on there cheap... Would save some of the $$$ when it does come. (Also clothes, you could put up an add saying you are looking for free or nearly free stuff for your kids.)
And keep venting! It does release some of the stress...
AWW!! Man.....THe last few months have been the same for most of us! Mine has just been HELL! I went from making good money to being layed off! ANd am just now startign to get back on my feet ....Kind of!? But on a good note I think I might have a flute for your DD....I would have to look through the storage, I love the thing but haven't touched it in a few years...SHe would probably give it better use. PM me if you are interested so that I can start searching for it!...I think it is still there if DP didn't get rid of it!
That would be awesome flowerchild if her school would allow it :( They are so damn anal! Their guidelines state that in order for her to play in the band her instrument cannot be second hand. It has to be new and either you have to show them its new or buy from the company they use. I dont know what the hell their issue is with it. Plus with this company you sign a contract and if an instrument is returned or repoed you still have to pay for the damn thing!
Thanks for the support ladies, it does help!
Oh hun. I have an inkling as to how you are feeling. I am feeling the same way. My depression has been rampant too the past few weeks, and it's not a fun time. I am so incredibly sorry you are going thru all this. None of us should have to, but I know we all are to some extent. That makes it a tiny bit easier for me, knowing I am not alone. Sorry you are so stressed!!! **hugs**
im sorry youre so stressed out, i wish i could help but im really not in much of a better position
You ladies are awesome. Its good to see I'm not only not alone but that people do care :) Hugs to you all!
Already a member? Click here to log in
Ah hun... I am so sorry! We are hating these bills too... Sit down and calmly (and sadly) call everyone you owe and ask them to please work with you. Then contact any churches around and/or gov. assistant offices. There sometimes is help when you reach out. We got a 2 week extension on our power ;) Wishing you the best, take care!
Does DD school have instruments to use? My HS did... worth a check.
- jalex
Message Friend Invite