My journey threw T.T.C

Hello girls for 6 weeks I'm going to tell you my journey threw the TTC world. It all started about 3 years ago i was in high school still and 16 . I started having sex very young so i was going threw the rebellious stages were i wanted a baby and i didn't care who got me pregnant you all know how that goes but to move on i got in to this relationship with a senior at the time and his name was Scott  and i thought he was best thing in the world but i was wrong . We had been together for like 2 months so i wanted to have his baby because i thought i loved him so much you know and it was the worst thing i can ever do. but while i was trying to get pregnant things started to go down hill he started to hit and rape me and told me i was nothing to him and i stay in the relationship for almost 2 years  but while i was i the relationship i stared to have health problems . i went to the Dr. and she told me  had a tumor and a cyst on my uterus so i was having problems with my periods and they were coming and not coming so my dr told me i needed to have a dnc to get everything that's was wrong out . So after my dnc i went to the dr  she said that if i was going to want kids in the future i should trying to have a baby now. I told my boyfriend what was going and i said i want to have a baby because if i don't get pregnant and i never have kids then i will be hurt forever  he said that Ur only 17 and I'm 19 so how r we going to do this. i begged him to do this for me so we stared to try and  have a baby .  Well that didn't work out at all  i went back to the Dr because  i was having problems again . i went to my appointment and she told me again that i have to another dnc i was so hurt sad i just got out of a bad relationship and my new boyfriend i was with was willing to try ave a baby after my dnc. So we went to Dr's and stuff i never got pregnant going threw all of this   was very stressful and hard  i didn't want ot get up eat anything because i was so depress . My boyfriend decide he wanted to not be with me anymore so here i am 17 going to be 18 trying to have a baby because Dr's are telling me i cant have one so i quit trying to have one because i didn't think it was worth it and i didn't think god loved e because if things that i have done. Wait girls  cant finish the sorry yet becuase i another weeks to write and i cant tell the whole story yet  but also on a personal note i tryed to make it a good story so i hope you like and want to hear more   bye girls i will write on Monday.