Wanting a child, but can't have one.

[chrissys_mommy]

so, some background.

I have a pretty serious eye conditions, that is currenlty under control.  I have what they call, Medicine Induced Glaucoma. Glaucoma is eye eye pressure, if left untreated I could go blind from it.  The Medicine that is causing my glaucoma Is keeping my disease at bay and not making me lose any more of my vision.

OK, so my husband and I have been married for 3 1/2 years and have been together for 5.  I have a daughter who lives with us and he has a daughter who does not. 

We have been wanting a child since we got married, but up until recently have nto wanted it enought to have one.  So now, at least me, wants a child.  I tnk he does to, but we both know that right now is not the time.

We thought we would ask my glaucoma doctor when we saw her Yesterday, if my glaucoma would pose a problem, thinking of the future.  We were told that I would have to go off of the glaucoma medications, which are keeping my pressure in the safe range, and go onto a different one which would probably not lower my pressure enough to have a child.  She said ti would need to be experimetnal going onto the other eye drop to really know what it would do.  It could bring it down enough, hard to say.

So, my husband and my thought for  another child got shattered, because we both know we do not want to risk my vision for a child.  IN the future, we might try the other eye drops to see what it did, but she is saying it would not be as good as what I am on right now.