The worst person in the world

[heydooney]

I killed my beautiful pet sparrow.

I was too wrapped up in my own stupid problems.

How do you forget to feed a member of your own family?

I rescued her at a week old. She should not have survived. She wobbled around on the sidewalk for who knows how long in a neighborhood with tons of cats. She spent a night alone in 50-degree weather. She was so tough, so spunky, so sweet. She came through so much, only to die because of me.

And I forgot about her in her room away from the cats. We got home on Sunday and I asked Paul to check on her. He gave her water, but I guess he didn't think about food. Then he got sick and everything went to crap, and I forgot about her. My little miracle bird. I killed her.

I went in to feed her today, and she was just a soft brown lump on the newspaper. There was not a crumb of food left. She must have felt so awful, so alone, starving to death. I can't believe I did that to her. Why can't I take it back? I'm so sorry, Pip. I'm sorry.

[coolmawmy]

Feb. 3, 2009 at 4:10 PM

Oh you poor thing!  You are having such a rough time right now to begin with!  You can not blame yourself though!  Things happen sometimes.  HUGS  I am so sorry.