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Got the Baby Blues :-(
- Feb 4, 2009 at 7:40 PM
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It started before she was even 24 hours old. I know I have so much to be thankful for and think of those who've lost children and feel guilty for feeling this way. I miss being pregnant so bad. I love being pregnant. I love giving birth. It is so empowering. The only way I can explain how I'm feeling is by comparing it to Christmas. It's like the excitement you feel about Christmas and the "down" feeling you get when it's over. You have your gifts, and they are great but the excitement about the day is gone. But I know I need to move on and just enjoy being a mommy to my baby on the outside. I know this but can't seem to shake this feeling. I get stuck in a moment. Wish I could relive the moments each of my children were born. I find myself crying for two opposite things at the same time. Like crying because I'm not pregnant anymore and crying because I'm so thankful that she is here and is healthy and beautiful, and I can love on her and kiss and snuggle her. I cry about wanting more babies in the future and feel like it's crazy to want more when I already have four. I also wonder if my body can take more pregnancies. This last one was very difficult. I am diabetic and was on insulin and checking my sugars 4 times/day since I was 6 weeks pregnant. With the Diabetes, comes the high risk of Pre-eclampsia, which thankfully, I didn't get but had some high Blood Pressures and protein in my urine a couple of times. I had to go to the Dr. weekly from 32 weeks on for NST's and U/S to check for fluid. Inspite of all of this, I love it and hope I get the chance to do it again & again & again.
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I understand about the diabetes. That is what I am going through (and did for each kid!)
Have you talked to your doctor? I am no help really, since a I am pregnant and b I have never been through this myself....and hope I don't when this one is born since it will be our last. HUGS!
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