I'm so Useless.

[briezysmommy]

I'm 6 weeks pregnant and I feel like a useless lazy slob. I haven't done the dishes in 2 days. My laundry is done and folded but it just sits in the baskets instead of getting put away. I take a super quick shower and don't dry my hair or do my makeup. I go from one pair of pajamas to the next. I feel like such a useless slob!

I tried doing the dishes today but it didn't go well. I rinsed and stacked all of the dirty ones, make some hot soapy water, started getting really dizzy, and haven't been back to them yet. Every time I stand up I feel like I'm going to throw up (haven't thought) and start getting dizzy and get bad tunnel vision. I really wanted to clean up the house today, have a nice dinner ready for Kyle when he gets home. But Briella and I are both still in our PJ's watching Sponge Bob. I tried getting out some dinner to be ready to cook later and just thinking about the food made me want to vomit. All I can eat is crackers and I have to force myself to even get them down.

When I was pregnant with Brie this was never a problem. I was dizzy for about a week and never nauseous. I had a great appetite and at least enough energy to clean the house and have dinner ready when Kyle got home. Now it's just sit on the couch and try not to make any sudden movements that will send me into a dizzy spell.

Worst of all, he think I'm using this as an excuse to be lazy. He thinks I'm enjoying it. Well I'm not. I'd much rather clean the kitchen, be able to have a nice big lunch, make him some dinner and play with Briella. Double worst of all is that I have to work from 6-10 tonight and I'm a cashier so I have to stand up the entire time. My employer doesn't know I'm pregnant yet but I might just have to tell her tonight so that they let me sit down or something. I don't know if I can handle even 4 hours of nausea and tunnel vision, and it's always worse at night.

I really hope this all goes away soon, I hate it.  =(