Im trying to find forgiveness in my Heart for you. Im so tired of being mad. I dont want to hurt anymore, I have this hurt in my heart that I have carried around for so long. You dont even care. But before I say im threw with you I have a few things I would like to get off my chest so here it goes. I want you know that YOU did not break me by leaving me as a child you only made me STRONGER. I DESERVE A MOTHERS LOVE. I want to thank you cause you showed me how not to treat my kids. ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO BE LOVED BY YOU!!!!!! I had a great childhood without you though. ANY WOMAN CAN BE A MOTHER BUT IT TAKES A REAL WOMAN TO BE A MOM!!!! Alot has happened since you saw me last, I grew up I now have a family of my own, I have a wonderful husband and two beautiful kids(your grand-kids i might add) That you chose not to be a part of my life. You ask me to leave you alone never to contact you again, So i wont out of respect to you even though you showed me know respect because you are still my mother even though you dont want to be. I will never understand what I did as a baby to make you not love me. But i wanted to let you know I did have a great childhood and had an amazing woman who raised me in case you ever wondered but I bet you didn't. I wanted to thank you for not being there for me as I grew up cause I grew up a stronger person. I learned alot from you even though I never really knew you. Hopefuly I can find forgiveness in my heart, Its funny really how a simple word can have such a strong meaning!!!!!!!!!!!