Being alone sucks balls

[brenna_jean88]

I am here. You are there. We are fucking everywhere! Why is it that I feel so fucking alone? Hmmm well maybe becuase I am. I have no job (three potential jobs that I am waiting to hear from), I have no friends beside the few that are scattered around WA and OR that I never get to see, and I feel like shit. Luke and I sit at home all fucking day long just hoping someone will come over or pretend to give a fuck that we are alive (ok mostly me, but I know Luke is lonley as well, because he is happy when ANYONE comes here). My life has been on pause for the past 2 years living in this fucking shithole of a navy town and I am really looking foward to possibly finding friends that aren't jerks when I move away. It seems like everyone is always busy while I am at home looking for some cleaning/baking/something to do. Julius is my best friend but he gets pretty sick of me talking about the same old shit all the time and I never really have anything new to say, besides, I cleaned the cat litter today, or Auzker pushed Lucas on the ground and he has been in a whiney mood ever since. I wish it were easier to make friends, in high school I was always surrounded by people and now Im stuck here. Shit. Balls. Fuck.

[jalex]

Feb. 19, 2009 at 7:17 PM

I know what you mean, it is hard to stay connected when everyone is so busy.

[tiffers32788]

Feb. 19, 2009 at 8:39 PM

Honey I feel you on this. I am living pretty much the same life, minus the navy base. I just live in a place where no one knows me, and no one wants to know me because I dont fit in. Feels like highschool all over again haha. I have no one...I am so depressed lately that it is just killing the few good things I had in my life, including my fiance. Its a long drawn out story on my side, but if you ever want to talk to a jersey girl, stop by my page. Im always up for a good convo.

FEEL BETTER!!

[mardaisy]

Feb. 20, 2009 at 4:01 PM

I am with you!  It's really hard to find really good and real friends.. especially is you have being hurt in your life.  I am a 43 year old mom of 3 daughters and grandkids.. My social life is down the drain, especially after I broke up with my ex-boyfriend of 3 years..  I got so used to him that it's being a year and I have not be able to even date anyone..  It feels really lonely and is not a sexual thing . just having someone around that really care and share good times with you means the world.  At the same time, I have trust issues so is really hard for me to get close to anyone..  I just pray the Lord every day to give me my confidence back and I can be the same cheerful and outgoing person, i used to be.. Take care..You are not alone!!  God bless!!

[Young_GA_Momma]

Feb. 21, 2009 at 10:49 AM

Yeah, it sucks sitting at home all day without a job, or friends to hang out with on a regular basis.

I've been looking for a job for over 6 months now and I'm going to run myself headfirst into a wall if i don't get one soon! I hate not having a schedule, or a reason to change out my jammies. LOL