balance

[peachez21527]

I often wonder sometimes how did my grandmother balance work and raising her children and grandchildren. I grew up with my grandmother and she worked everyday and still had time to take care of me. I sometimes thought she never slept. She is such a great inspiration to me and my girls. She always taught me that whatever you want in life you have to go get it. No one else is going to get it for you. You control your own destiny no matter what. I am trying to do the same for my girls. Working and trying to be there for them is so hard. I also have a hard time trying to find time for myself. Its like I feel guilty if I am doing something for myself and they are not with me. I often think I am being a bad mother. I know that is not a good way to think because as mothers we need our time to recoup. I know I am not alone in this a lot of single mothers are going through the same thing working or not. Even when you stay at home with your children you still are working and have a hard time finding that balance in life. I just want the best for my girls. I want them to grow up knowing they are loved, and they can accomplish anything in life. I do not want them to settle for less. Maybe as they get older this will get easier but until then I will pray every night and always keep a positive thought in my mind.