I have not been on for a long time. life is just taking a lot out of me right now. the kids are great but all the other stuff is really pulling me down. Its hard to be a mom and feel down but I'm working through it. my kids have been a big help with everything. I think I just need to get on more and vent some of the crap and get some answers from everyone out there. DH is driving me crazy. he just doesn't get that he needs to be around more not just in the room but with us. wanting more kids is taking a long time and is one of the hardest parts. I don't know when or were we'll be moving in the next 6 months. and that unknown is hard. i don't know its not anything big just a lot of little stuff that keeps adding to the pile.