Letter To My Daughter

[randi1978]

Dear Michelle,

School called me again.  They want you looked at for ADHD and god knows what else.  I don't know what to do anymore, baby.  I want so badly to be able to relate and understand what it is you are going thru, but I can't.  Not because I don't want to, but because I am incapable of doing so!

You and I are so different.  Opposing forces...Yin and Yang.  Sometimes I watch you and I wonder what makes you tick.  You are in your own little world.  You are so good while at home but totally different at school.  What am I doing wrong?  I know we don't get to see each other as much as we would like, but I can't help it.  I have to work.  I try like hell to work with you, but you lose interest so quickly that I don't know what else to do.

What's going on in your head?

What is the school seeing that I am not seeing, baby?

I love you so damned much....and when people suggest that something is wrong with you, I feel like it's a slow death.

I want to help you.  I want the school to see that you are not a lost cause.  You will go into kindergarten next year...we'll make sure of it!  But you need to help me understand you so I can help you!

I don't know what else to say....I love you.  I want the best for you.  I know that there are times when it is hard as hell to give you that, but damn it I try.

Love you

Mom

 

[MunchiesMom324]

Feb. 26, 2009 at 9:05 PM

Aww, hun... sometimes realizing that they have a problem is the beginning of healing... Once my son started his ADHD meds we got closer... (granted, when he's not on them, we arent so friendly to each other...)

[AlexnJoesMom]

Feb. 27, 2009 at 12:36 AM

Have you looked up Aspergers Syndrome?  Sometimes it looks a lot like ADHD and sometimes children can have both.  Good luck to you, Momma!  Message me if you'd like to talk.  Its hard sometimes with little ones who have needs that we don't always understand.  My DD (almost 6) was diagnosed at age 3 with PDD-NOS (on the autism spectrum).  I wouldn't trade her for the world!  But some days can be difficult!