I'm so scared

[Sammieanne]

I have changed so much since I've become a mother. I now watch TV or movies and emotional situations bother me. I have never been one to cry over things on tv. I would laugh at people who did. Now I get weepy over everything. I was watching something earlier with preemie babies and I started thinking what if Avery was preemie, what if I had lost him. I would be so devastated. Even in the most trying times I couldn't imagine my life with out him. I never knew that I could love someone so much that I wouldn't even have to think for a second about whether or not I would give my life for him. He's over a year old now and I still check on him at night. It's not just his health I worry about either. Ernie likes to watch a show that they go into prisons and talk to inmates and some of them are so young. It scares me to think that I might fail him as a mother and he could grow up to make the horrible mistakes those people did. I just hope that is just another worry and not reality.

[marjonmotel]

Mar. 1, 2009 at 10:56 PM

i am sure you are a great mom!!! Have a great nite!!