Tuesday, the 'day off' and the day i do most of my thinking

[1shything]

So, as i posted before, i could be pregnant, i could not be pregnant. I dont know, cirecumstances were that i missed the pill a couple of days and had sex. Thats just the truth of the matter, and that was about a week ago. I am nervous and scared and a little freaked out (on one hand) ...  then again on the other hand i did always want to be a mom and have kids, and i would love to start that phaze of my life now. It certainly would be nice to find a better job, but i am up for review soon and i expect that my raise will be significant, so i dont think that having a baby will neccesarily put us out for too much money. We are not married, althought i do think that he will want to get married as soon as i tell him that we are expecting. I do know that he wants kids eventually, maybe not now.. but then his mother is in failing helth and he does want his kids to be able to meet their grandmother. I dont know, i guess i am just rambling on a bit. Then there are the dogs, they love kids and i dont want them to be too old to play once we have children of our own at a 'playable' age. (i love pitbulls, theyr awesome)