Stuck in a rut

[KoolMama]

    I need to vent. At least I think I do. Lately, I've been feeling a little...I can't think of the right word, so I'll just use: Blue. When we first moved here from NJ, I loved it. I didn't have to work, we had plenty of money. I could do anything I wanted, whenever I wanted. My kids are older, so I had a lot of free time on m y hands. But then, things got a little tough. Our home was affected by Hurricane Katrina. Most of our savings went towards rebuilding. I had to return to working full-time, to help with the bills. It was meant to be temporary. Until we received our recovery money. But now, due to the economy, it looks to be a little more permanent than originally anticipated. Actually, now I'm working harder than I ever have. The situation at work is bleak. We are understaffed, working 6 days a week(45-50 hrs/wk), and not getting paid OT, because my employer can't afford to pay it. When I do get a day off, I hardly have the energy to get out of bed, let alone cleaning the house, getting caught up with laundry, doing the grocery shopping,etc. The weird thing is, I think I identify better when I'm working then when I am home. This is the weird part: I'm in a better mood when I am at work, than when I am home. When I'm home: I'm cranky and irritable. You would think with all the time and energy I'm putting in at work, it would be the other way around, but it's not. My husband says that it's probably because at work I have a routine, a schedule and when I'm at home, I feel lost because I don't have the demanding schedule that I've grown accustomed to at work. It sounds like he could be right. But I don't know what to do about it.