Please pray for Kenny! UPDATE

[dncnmom]

Kenny just got his diagnosis - kidney cancer. The good news is that they don't think he has MS and that all of his symptoms were caused by the kidney failure. He will lose one of his kidneys, but the other will get back to normal, they say. Right now it's only at about 40% capacity, but they will be able to take care of everything without it getting to the point of dialysis. They are going to try a treatment that is not chemo and will not affect him like chemo would. Some kind of a laser thing, I think. And the cancer has not gone any further than the kidneys, thank heavens!

Now I get to vent, since I can't do it to Kenny and it's killing me holding everything inside for his sake! Why the hell won't he let me come see him?!?? He told me tonight that when his parents leave I can come up! How does he think that makes me feel....he doesn't want me to meet his parents under these circumstances. I DON'T CARE!! And if they stay for another month?? Where do I fit in with all of this...I am the OUTSIDER! That's where! Am I or am I not a part of his life?? I am trying my damdest to do and be what he wants and needs me to right now, but what about MY feelings? I understand that he's a really private person, and he says his mom is the same way, but I thnk this is carrying it a bit too far! I NEED to see him...he won't even let me talk to his mom on the phone!  I would think that you would want the one you love to be with you....I know I would.

Okay, selfish rant is over. There's nothing I can do about it anyway.