soooo scared!

[bluemist246]

my hubbys 1st deploy is comming in a month. i have never been so nervous in my life. i have so many frars, because i am alone. all my fam and friends are in ca. if something happenes to me here like i fall down the stairs or get sick knowone would know, and daniel would be alone. what am i gonna do? i still dont know ware anything is and i still dont have a hang of this whole army thing yet, it is too soon for me. i am angry at the military, i feel like i didnt get enugh time to agust, and not enugh time with my husband. i know all these things are so silly but i just had to let it out! aaaah! so far this army wife thing sucks!

[dozerfamily]

Mar. 8, 2009 at 9:58 AM

If you need ANYTHING just give me a call...or even if you just want to get out of the house.  You will eventually learn your way around.  You will see you are stronger than you give yourself credit for and will catch on like a pro.  Hang in there things will all work out and his deployment will be over before you know it!!

[ArmyWifeKelly]

Mar. 8, 2009 at 3:39 PM

Honey, I was in your shoes and I still kind of am. I've been with my husband for a grand total of 4 months in the 2 years we've been together. In the first 3 years we will have been together at the end of this deployment, we will have been together 4 months and 2 weeks. I was angry at the Army about how little time we've had together, but it's different now. I haven't had much time with my husband, but it is what it is. I've been a single mother for nearly a year now and that will be the case for another 9-12 months. You aren't alone in your situation. There are many of us out there who are doing it without family close by. My family lives at least 1200 miles and 26 hours away. It's okay to ask your friends for help. That's what we do in tis big Army family. Once he left, I explored post more and learned where stuff is. It's tough at first, but you will get it. To calm your fears about falling or whatever may happen, carry your cell phone with you and have all your friends and neighbors numbers in it. That way, you can call anyone at all times. I do that because I'm a diabetic and I need to be able to get help if I can't move because something happened to my blood sugar. Really, everything you're feeling, sounds like stuff everyone feels before a deployment. Try not to let your frustration with the Army linger. It may eventually become anger with your husband for being in the Army and you don't want to be angry with him. You will get the hang of this stuff and the deployment will pass faster than either of you know. Before you know it, it'll be time for him to come home. And reach out to other wives you know. Everyone will support you if you ask. You can do it. It will get easier.