Lonely, feeling like half of myself is missing.

[army_mommy15]

It's been 15 days since my husband left for training. He leaves's sometime in may to go out of country. He's in the National Guard for Indiana, and he has to leave his family, his 4 month old daughter and me. We've been together ever since October of 2007, to some it might be just a short time but to us it feels like we've have a strong enough relationship to make it through anything. We have no ides how long he will be gone, what kind of danger he will be in or how much we will be able to talk. I hate the fact that I've waited so long to find my soul-mate and he has to leave so soon in our relationship. I'm terrified that something might happen to him while he's over there, even if its not him getting hurt or killed, there are other things that could happen to him. He is the most sensitive guy, caring and sweet, but I fear that going over, having to go threw such horrible things making such hard decisions that would change a man forever is one of my biggest fear.

 

Having to go threw all this, having to raise our daughter with him so far away i have enough on my plate right. I have had surgery recently,I had cysts on my ovaries, really big ones and alot small ones. The doctor told me that they had to take one ovary and part of the other one. I was told that they did the cancer test, or whatever it is and they told me that I am "INBETWEEN". Now please tell me how well can you be in between with something like this, I will find out soon whether or not i have more on my plate that i fear i can handle. I was also told that i was the youngest patient that my doctor had operated on and if i had been older they would have taken both and we wouldn't have a chance to have more children of our own, I know that we not only have our daughter we have the option of adoption, but I won't have my husband next to me to tell me it's alright if god forbid is something wrong.  I just hate not knowing.