Invisible......

[kiwi91663]

Invisible?

Do you ever feel that way...cause I have to tell you...I do!

I don't fit in...I say things and no one cares enough to listen....then someone not a minute later will say the exact same thing....and everybody hears them....

Example...

At a museum, oh look, they are setting up the music now...this is a very nice party....

No one listened to me...yet...another person in the group of about 10...said the same exact sentence not a minute later...and everyone turned to see....

AM I REALLY HERE!  HELLO!  Can anyone see me?

Or in a group chat....I will say something...and no one cares...or I am the outsider....no one really knows me....no one tries to get to know me....I am lost cause everyone knows each other....and I don't fit in...

I say...oh, look....someone or other made a new post.....No one cared....

Not a minute later one of the "in" people made the same comment...word for word....and everyone went to read it.....Ok..well, I guess as long as you noticed and read...it does not matter how you heard about it....

I guess my words did not print out on others screens....I saw it...but, well oh well....

Misunderstood....

I am a nice person...mostly.....I try to be nice to everyone....I do have a bad habit of having being a smartass...but, that is me....I don't deal well with stupidity....including my own....but, I am usually the first to give the shirt of my back to someone in need....however, the favor is almost never returned....

So when someone does do something nice for me....I really notice it....

One of the reasons I married my husband...he brought me flowers....and then he stopped....I have tried to say....just a single rose...or carnation....that is all...but, show me you cared enough to stop and do this for me....cause I do a million things for you everyday....little things...please just do this for me on occasion....but, so far...nothing....men!

Most don't get that I am joking...most think I don't smile....most think I am a witch....most don't get me at all....

And at my age...I really don't care that much anymore....as this has been the way it's been my whole life....and while this sounds like a pity party...it's not really....it is just a note on how I feel sometimes...and wondered if others felt this same way.....

I live in such a small little space now...that it's hard to know what is going on out in the real world....Heck...we had a hurricane heading our way a year or so ago now...and I did not know it until the day before it made it on shore....however, no where near us...which was good, for us anyway....

Well, I guess the bottom line is I am who I am....and I can't be someone else....

I am just me...that is all I want to be....like me....love me....or hate me!

I just hope everyone has a good day!   

[LoveMyDog]

Mar. 9, 2009 at 8:17 AM

Hi Kiwi  I read your post.  You are NOT invisible.  But that would be a cool superpower.

[MSugarKane]

Mar. 9, 2009 at 8:34 AM

Hi! Your not invisible at all . ..... many of us feel that way at times, I know I do! 

[Squirrell34]

Mar. 9, 2009 at 8:51 AM

Hi Kiwi -- you are NOT invisible.
If I have ever done that to you, it was not intentional & I am so sorry.  I feel that way too sometimes, so I hate when I friend of mine feels that way; it stinks.

(And if you were really invisible we never would have been able to find your photo & bring you with us to MN!!)

Big hugs,

-Sq

[ArmyFamilyof7]

Mar. 9, 2009 at 10:28 AM I know when I am with the kids I feel invisible, not that people can't see me... of course they notice the chick with the 5 crazy children. I guess I mean that people don't see ME, so I think I tend to be a bit obnoxious and loud when it is just me. Also I do find in chat that sometimes you have to say things twice to have someone respond. I think that things move so quickly that they just aren't seen. Please don't take it personally. AND sometimes with chat you really can't see someone. Say something, just don't feel that we don't care because we all do! Hugs to you!

[squeegeatc]

Mar. 9, 2009 at 2:29 PM

I've started to think of it this way.  I'm not invisible--I'm in STEALTH mode!!  Maybe that tiny bit of thinking can cheer you up a bit.  I think we all feel this way every once in a while.  It still sucks, though.

[SuzzzieQ]

Apr. 6, 2009 at 3:42 PM

Kiwi-invisible, well maybe one with the great ideas that everybody has to mull around in their brains before they get their "ahhh haaa" moment.  Totally happens with my husband all the time.  Sometimes it takes days to "be his idea" and then it is great!  Absolutely frustrating.    My greatest feat - not being invisible - I look like a worker wherever I go - yes people always ask me about the products, locations, or anything of the place I am in.  From Walmart, the library, schools, anywhere, pisses me off sometimes!

Sorry you have felt this way.  I will try to do better at recognizing people and their efforts.