My own little pity party

[Harrisonsmommie]

I don't why this bothers me so much, but maybe I should start from the beginning. My husband is one of 8 grandsons on his dad's side, they are EXTREMELY close, like brothers, actually closer than I am to my sisters. They are all boys, within 9 years of each other, no girls. I got pregnant, almost 3 years ago with the first great-grandson, my husband's cousin and his wife had a boy, only 2 months after us. She called last night to tell everyone that she was pregnant. I know I should be happy for her, but I'm not, I'm jealous, sad, depressed, among other things. I want another baby so bad, but me and my husband can't have one until our house sells in Lubbock. So here I am 26 years old, living with my in-laws, stuck in a limbo between OKC and Stillwater. My husband is gone at least 2 nights a week, and drives up to the Stillwater the other days, I only get to see him every once in a while. To top it all off, I have no friends, really. It seems they have all gone away in one way or another, so I have no one to talk to. Then I feel stupid for being so depressed. I should be happy with my life, others have it so much worse, but here I am crying for no reason, or at least no good reason. I feel so selfish, because I hope she doesn't have a girl, and be the first to have the ever so coveted girl, because I want a girl. I know, I'm a horrible, selfish person. I want a baby so bad!!!!! I want to move out of my in-laws house!!!! I've been here for 6 months!!!!! I just want someone to talk to. But I don't have anyone, so I'll do what I always do, keep it in, take more Lexapro and throw myself a pity party

[natclaire85]

Mar. 10, 2009 at 2:13 PM You know, I had a lot of fun getting together with you that one time! I've been going through a really hard time the past few months with extreme sickness. But really, we should get together again. Here's my number - 806-559-8287. Call me anytime!!

[Harrisonsmommie]

Mar. 10, 2009 at 4:14 PM

I wish I could, but we moved to OKC, but my hubby's job is in Stillwater(1hr 15min away) But thank you very much!

(Original Poster)

[MommytoNakoa]

Mar. 10, 2009 at 5:15 PM

I hear ya. I don't have any friends here where I am either, and my dh is always gone. At least you have your inlaws to keep you company.

I hope your house sells soon. We are looking to buy in a couple of months when we move, and from what our realtor says the market is picking up. Seems so, b/c every house I like has been sold rather quickly.

 

Hugs to you.