going crazy!! Am i???

[jess04976]

Right now at this point in time i feel like killing my self. i don't want to be hear. I NEVER leave the house, my husband goes everywhere and does everything. he brings my daughter preschool and goes and gets my daughter. see i have social anxiety, bipolar, and am clinically depressed. Lately it has gotten worse. I don't want to feel like this but i can't control it i just feel this way all the time. My son makes me so happy though!! i love him to so much!!!I just don't want to be here right now. i want to go away and never come back. they won't miss me that all i keep thinking. i know it's now true but that's all i think. i feel like i am going crazy. am i really that crazy? thank god i have a doctors appointment. tomorrow. she will be able to help, i hope. I know i want hurt myself, i stopped doing that a long time ago. before i had kids, years before i had kids.