It's officially over...

[PiecesofFaith]

So, I saw a picture of Jeb's girlfriend the other day and it's been killing me since.  My heart is broken into a million tiny pieces.  I am so freaking lonely!  I know I have no real right to be upset because I am pregnant with another guy's baby, but I can't help but feel hurt.  She's like 4'10" and kinda stocky, but I think she's prettier than I am.  My mom and sister don't think so, but I do.  Family is supposed to lie to you about that kinda stuff.  I know some of my feelings are from the pregnancy hormones, but I doubt that this would not have hurt just as bad if I weren't pregnant.  I am just really confused right now.  He calls me "Baby" on the phone and tells me he loves me before we get off the phone, so I don't really know what to think.  I do want him to be happy, I really do, but I wish I could have been the one to make him happy.  Yesterday was our 3 year anniversary and he spent the day with her.  I was up at L&D because of a possible gallbladder problem.  I have cried both yesterday and today because I'm so freakin jealous.  I want someone to want me and love me again.  I have to keep myself from reaching out to certain people because I need to learn how to take care of myself, but I really just want someone to hold me.  I want someone to hold me while I cry and tell me everything will be OK.  I just don't know what I want anymore.  I want someone to hold me and just be there for me, but I don't have anyone close by to ask.  I really wish my best friend was here.  She would know how to make me feel better.  I am so hurt right now...

[mcqueenmom]

Mar. 19, 2009 at 7:37 PM

[Vashtiruescode3]

Mar. 19, 2009 at 7:41 PM