why oh why is weight loss so hard ?

[MrsFancyPants]

 I don't think I'll ever ever understand the way my body is. What I mean is why does it have to be so damn hard to lose weight ? I have NO trouble what so ever gaining weight ! I can even do that in my sleep, I'm sure. I have been doing weight watchers for the past year and a half. I have had a great loss, but it's slow. I've managed to take off a good 35 lbs. Like I said, it is slow, which I am okay with as long as I move in the right direction. Now, i'm not one to go full force die hard on a diet and deprieve myself of my favorite things. I'll indulge now and then on some good chocolate or a favorite alcoholic beverage...I just can't go without things I love because as I've learned from past mistakes , it only ends up with me falling off my diet plan and stuffing my face with all my favorite treats, drinks and foods. So When I decided to join weight watchers, their motto is it's "A life style change, not a diet, diets don't work". So I liked that idea and took it to heart. I work in to my daily points the things that I can not give up because if I did it feels so darn restrictive..and point blank not much fun. However since I began this plan and journey on weightloss I have hit a wall. I am not as excited about this anymore, having just a little bit of chocolate once in a great while doesn't compare to enjoying a full bag of m&m's, now does it? I can't be happy with my two point glass of wine anymore, I want the whole darn bottle. I can't be happy with my lowfat/diet ranch dressing, I want the full fat kind. It's becoming so frustrating to me. I'm getting pissed off at myself. Why aren't I happy with moderation in my bad habit foods? I do want to lose weight, I want it bad, but apparently not enough to give up certian foods,treats, or drinks. I do not understand this at all, it's as if my head is battling on two sides, one the devil side, and one the angel side. *I did quit smoking and know that this is part of my problem, but if I'm being totally honest, I was struggling with all these feelings before I quit two weeks ago* I want my morning coffee with a whole lot of my coffee mate creamer, i want my lunch with regular full fat salad dressing, I want my dinner with cheesey goodness and my dessert at night of ice cream , cookies or chocolate. I can not eat this way any longer and I'm battling life long habits that I was raised with. I wish so much it was as easy as smoking is, just don't buy it, don't put it in your mouth and that ='s No problem, easy weightloss ! However it isn't.

I am needing something to make this lifestyle that I have convinced myself over and over is something that I need to do the rest of my life. Of course right now it's to loose weight but later when the weight is gone, I can't go back to the other way. It's unhealthy and I'll put back on the lbs.

I am trying to do self motivation talking to encourage the desire to stay on weight watchers, pay the monthly fee for membership, go to the meetings, go do my monthly shopping and each week pick up the fruits/veggies/milk and bread- all of this prep will keep me  trudging along and that will bring great things on the scale. I know this, why can't I just do it? Why can't I find great easy fast cheap reciepes that I can feed myself as well as my family so that I will be statisfied , not hungry and not craving more ? Why can't I do this like I did at the beginning>?

When I began it was so darn exciting each week it was a wonderful fun learning game that I was a winner of when I went to weigh in day at the meetings. I want those feelings back. Instead of feeling that I'm having to go without things , suffer and feel depressed because I want this weightloss struggle to be over with . I want the weight off and not be so supspectible to weight gain with each tiny morsel I put in my mouth ! I know that can't be, won't be and never will be. that isn't my body and how my body works. So why can't I just be happy with how I am and eat healthy food so that I can wear the clothes I out grew ? it makes me angry frustrated and depressed.

I'm working this week to encourage, excite and make myself happy so that I won't be struggling so much trying to stay on my plan to lose weight. I need to loose more weight than what I have. I need atleast another 20 lbs gone to be where I want to be and that will be a good healthy place for my body.

I am working this week to find some great easy fast healthy reciepes that will statisfy me. I am working this week to stay on track and see some lbs come off at the next weeks meeting.

I'd love to hear from all of you how you keep yourself motivated and eye on the prize so to speak. Share with me please, I need some encouraging words ladies !!! I promise, I'll laugh, cry and cheer you on as well ! We need to be nice to ourselves , we need to be our own BFF !

[kamore]

Mar. 25, 2009 at 4:25 PM

I totally feel for you! I think it stinks that we have to struggle so hard to lose the weight.  I have no secret that will help though once I tried duct tape over my mouth... only great for removing facial hair! 

 I have learned you have to laugh see things with a sense of humor.  Eating M&M while walking on the treadmill do not count.  Sometimes I start out with my full points and subtract instead of add.  I am not a very structured person but I am always here if you ever need someone to just listen!

kamore

[missyrooTX]

Mar. 25, 2009 at 4:40 PM

Hey girlie!  Chin up!  I totally get ya;)  I lost 80lbs 3 years ago.  I'd like to lose about 20 more.........BUT............I know what treats I like to consume.  They aren't on any "diet" plan.  I've had to find peace with myself knowing that I will never be at my "ideal" weight because I'm not willing to give up the foods that would get me there.  I'm not willing to sacrifice to that degree.