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My Phoenix. ( The death of a beloved cat)
- Mar 26, 2009 at 6:39 AM
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I have an old beat up , snaggle toothed , orange cat named Phoenix. He is an amazing kitty given his life story. We adopted him 3 years ago from Last chance cat rescue. He had been in 5 shelters in several different states before we found him. No one wanted Phoenix, because he was an older guy with some issues, he has allergies and asthma and needs steroid shots every 90 days and benadryl every day. That didnt deter us , neither did the fact that he was a hurricaine Katrina Rescue kitty and had been in shelters in Louisiana, Texas and Florida before he was placed with the Virginia cat rescue we adopted him from. We loved him and thought he was just the furry companion we needed at the time. We adopted him and brought him home and we have been loving him ever since. We named him Phoenix for several reasons , one was his bright orange tabby coat, the second was my S/O's Harry Potter Addiction , and the third was The Phoenix is the symbol of rebirth , it comes out of the ashes a new bird over and over and we thought it was fitting because he came from the ashes of a terrible natural disaster, Katrina.
Katrina is now apparently taking my cats life. For some unknown reason , his liver and kidneys are failing , the vets cant explain why, other than the toxic soup of water , chemicals , gasoline , oil, cleaning solvents etc, caused him some kind of damage to his organs. The vets have told me that they are seeing this with animals that have been rescued from Katrina, odd organ failures, cancers, and other unusual illnesses. I dont care why it is happening , My baby is dying. We have known that he will die for several months now , we have been happy when he has good days , sad when he has bad days , we have nursed him , tried medications, and other treatments, he got better for a while, now hes getting worse again. He is so much worse that he is losing weight , his energy is gone , and he is letting us know it is time for him to go. On Saturday , we will take him to the vet and have him humanely euthanized, it is the last thing I can do for him , end his life before his suffering becomes unbearable. I am doing it even though I am not ready for it to happen , because what I want doesent matter here , I need to do whats best for PHOENIX even though I selfishly dont want to let him go. If I dont do it , then I would be making HIS life worse, I would make HIM suffer and that is not fair to HIM. So even though I am not ready , he is , and the kindest thing I can do is to help him cross over into his next life. Not doing so would be cruel , and I cant be cruel. I dont want him to die alone , so as hard as it will be for all of us , we will hold him as he goes and tell him how much we love him. He will cross over and find Belle or other kitty and Thumper , my daughters bunny , and the three of them will be happy , healthy , whole and together once again for all time. They will wait for us like all good pets do, so we can all be together again one day.
I am sorry Phoenix. I am sorry that no treatment or no amount of money can save you . I am sorry that the vet cant fix this for you, I am sorry you were only with us for three years, I wish we had found you sooner, and I am sorry that your life is ending , I wish I had many more years of you snuggling on my lap , sleeping on my pillow purring in my ear all night, watching you play with your kitty sisters, attacking my feet , and watching you HATE the dogs, I honestly think T-Rex has nightmares about you hissing and spitting at him every time he popped his head in my bedroom door. I know Ginny , Luna , Lily and Alastor will miss you terribly , you are their brother, and they will know you are gone . It will be the hardest for Lily , you have been her best friend all her life, and she will miss her big brother terribly. Watch over her so she is ok after you go. Phoenix my friend this really sucks, all around. Dying is a terrible thing , and for you , your death will be quick , painless and full of love , that I can promise you. We are doing this because we want you to go to sleep before you are in agony and great distress. I do not want to see you in , nor do I want you to experiance such pain and agony. I wish things could be different, I wish this wasnt happening , I wish I could hold on to you forever, but I cant, so we are letting you go with all the love in our hearts, because we know it is whats best for you. I will miss you terribly , think of you often and I will make sure your brother and sister kitties are well taken care of so that you can rest. I love you my sweet orange boy , with all my heart, sleep well and wait for me , one day I will come , and we can be together again.
My baby when he was healthy
With his sisters Luna and Lily
Comments:
awwww i only read halfway through and i am in tears over here......i am so sorry your going through this,i remember my baby that i had for 9yrs and my mom had to put him down also but again it was in his best interest....i wish u all the best....be strong
I put my beloved Jazzman down over 4 years ago. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. But I know I did what was best for him. I miss my Jazz everyday. I had him 14 years.
I think you have done all you can do. Love him as much as you can until Saturday and then tell him you love him and pet him. Let him go in peace.
I am sorry that he can't be cured. Katrina is still affecting animals and people alike. It's a sad ordeal.
So Sorry. I will pray for you and your kitty!
I'll be thinking about you guys tomorrow...this just sucks. I'm sorry Katie. ((Hugs))
I am so very sorry for your loss. I had to put one of my cats down in December and it was so hard but I am thankful that we can peacefully put them out of their misery. Hugs to you and yours.
Awww man, this post made me cry... I know exactly how you feel, been there, done that. And with my 7 cats and 2 dogs, I know I'm going to have to go through it again... And I know how incredibly hard it is to have a beloved pet put down, how you yourself are NEVER ready for it, but you know you have to do it for the animal's sake.
You have given him 3 great years after everything he's been through, and I'm sure he's grateful for that. I know nothing I can say will make it easier, but you know you're doing the right thing for Phoenix, and that's all that matters in the end.
three years being loved and cuddled is a great long life for one that would have not made it without you he was LOved that is all he wanted your a good person takecare he will be waitting over the rainbow bridge now he is happy and jumping around
That made me cry
Iam so so GLAD that there are pople like you OUT there
That care for animals
ONE day you two will see each other again
BIG HUGS from your friend
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AAWW So sorry about Phoenix!You did the right thing for him!
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