i've got problems. =)

[pugmama]

here's my list of current woes.  i'm just so overwhelmed and frustrated and i have to get it off my chest.  it may make me seem weak or crazy or depressed.  but i guess i sorta am...

1)  trevin has turned into a completely out of control kid.  he is waaaay too rough with teagan and is always hurting him.  he hits, pushes, kicks, knocks over, squashes, etc teagan ALL DAY LONG.  he says he’s “being spiderman” and apparently spiderman is very aggressive and likes to run around and knock over 1 yr olds and lie on top of them until they can’t breathe.  i have no idea how to correct it.  i put him in time out, but he doesn't stay there.  and when he finally sits still for 2 mins and i let him out, he goes straight to teagan to knock him down again.  i watch nanny 911 and i even own the super nanny book!  but alas, the techniques are lost on my child.  *sigh*

2)  teagan is sick.  he's getting better, but still hasn't napped longer than 20 mins for the past 3 days.  he keeps waking up all sweaty and then won't go back to sleep.  he's currently upstairs crying because, frankly, i just can't deal w/it right now.  he's not hurt.  he's changed and fed.  he needs to just wait a bit for mommy to calm down.  =)

3)  trevin is also awake.  teagan's crying woke him up.  he's been pretty 50/50 about naps lately and he actually fell asleep right away today and i know he would've slept his full 2 hrs if i had gone up and picked up teagan as soon as i heard him crying.  but teagan's not going to learn to nap if he knows that i'll come in and get him the moment he lets out a peep.

4)  shane is gone.  he's in the field right now.  he left the 24th and won't be home until the 3rd.  yay.  not only is life with the kids becoming slightly miserable, but i'm in it alone.  as usual.  first he was in iraq.  then he had to move to nc and i was still in va.  now i'm in nc too but he was doing sniper school and he'd only be home weekends.  and now he's in the field while i'm at home going nuts!  oh, and he'll be leaving again for 2-9 weeks in april.  he's picking one of 2 courses to take.  one is a mere 2 weeks, the other 9.

5)  my house is a wreck!  i'd love to make a friend and invite her over, but she'd look around and wonder what i do all day, if not tidy up the place.  believe me, i wonder the same thing!  i am a non-stop woman.  i sit down only during naptime (on the days the kids even sleep) and most of the time i don't even do that.  i just go, go, go.  always doing one thing that leads to another that leads to another and before i know it, the day is done and my house still looks a mess!  ???  how i wish my house were clean and i could spend my days not cleaning, but actually enjoying living and playing w/the boys!

6)  i feel really guilty for not spending enough time one on one w/the kids.  part of me thinks that if i could just ignore the clutter and dishes and laundry and spend my day down on their level, trevin might behave better.  is it all a cry for attention?  am i being neglectful by trying to get things done?

7)  i have no friends.  no one to talk to.  i've met a few moms on here and through myspace that i've messaged here and there, but no one that's lasted more than a few phone calls or meet ups.  no offense to those ladies reading this who fall into that category, i'd LOVE to meet up again.  maybe i'm just too crazy or they're just too busy.  =)  i just wish i could find someone who i really connect with who i could hang out with and just be me and enjoy time together.  whether it's doing nothing, shopping, just walking, whatever.  i've never had a lot of friends, but at least i used to have them.  i can honestly say that i don't have a best friend.  and i wouldn't be able to honestly say i have any right now.  a few online friends that i can sorta "talk" to, but not a single real, in person friend.  what's wrong with me?  and all those friends i used to have- they only talk to me when i call or write them.  if i stopped writing, they might not notice i was gone.  i was once called "the life of the party" (really.  to my face.  it was nice.  =)) but now i not only dont' have a life, but it's been a looooong time since i've been to a party!  unless you count teagan's 1st bday where 20 people rsvp'd and 3 showed up.  woo-hoo!  par-tay!

ok.  now that i'm done whining, i'm gonna go see what the boys are up to up there.  it's actually quiet at the moment, which is slightly worrisome.  can you cry do death?  ;)  if i'm lucky they've cried themselves to sleep!  =)

[Stephie280]

Mar. 28, 2009 at 3:27 PM

THe behavior is the hardest thing in the world to go through. i went through with my oldest two. but they are 4 years apart. The one thing that i did find with my oldest who is adhd is that if i pick 30 mins and just talk to him or read or play a game with him he would behave alot better. Stick to your guns on the time outs. If you have to put hiim in his room when he is throwing a fit.

All my firends who used to live in NC have now moved or else i would send you there numbers. Millatary life just down right sucks somestimes. okay maybe most of the time when your the the mom and you feel like a single mom. If you need to chat you can pm me. i have dealt with all the behavior things your going through. Its not easy.