What If?

[bcylab]

I heard someone say the other day, that instead of wondering What if, WHY NOT TRY!!!

I so agree with this statement. I thought that same thing when I started my home business over 10 months ago.

If I did not try, I would still be here saying dang what if I started sooner, would I be better off, or would I have changed my life. As I sit here today, I can say, I am making a change, I am becoming better off. Not just for me, but for my entire family. I so see the big picture. This is not about the little things, like I thought it originally was, but there is a bigger frame and picture I am looking at and trying to pursue.

The more I see this coming together the more I start feeling the guilt of not being home with my family full time. This guilt is getting stronger, it hit me hard last night.  Brought me to tears.!

I have always be a person who loved to work, loved to help others. I know now I need to start worring about me more, give me a little more credit for what I do and accomplish. Let myself have more slack and not be hard on myself. But as we all know we are our worst critics.

I just want to get home and be there for my girls. I really never thought I would ever say that, but here I am saying it very loud and clear.