was something that I have been considering. My husband is unreliable, often lazy, short-tempered and unmotivated, unemployed.....ugh.

Well before I go down the divorce road I decided to try something. Laugh all you want, but, I am doing the "Love Dare." It's 40 days of dares to do on my spouse and to help me learn how to love unconditionally the way that I should.  It might sound cheesy, but, the alternative is to get a divorce and break up a family so for now I will take cheesy over the alternative.

I am supposed to journal about each day so here goes the first day of journals. I started this on March 30th, 2009.

 

Love is patient…

Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. -Ephesians 4:2

Today I was to keep from responding negatively in any way to my husband no matter what he did or said. It sounds easy enough, but, it’s much harder in reality.

Multiple times today he was short with me and impatient, but, I bit my tongue and then responded kindly as though he wasn’t impatient at all. Normally I would comment on his rudeness or snap back at him, but, today I did not. My typical reaction would usually cause him to be rude back and sometimes a fight would ensue. By me biting my tongue and responding kindly he carried on and there was no fighting. There was one time today, however, where he seemed to mock my kindness…as though he was aware that I was responding in a non-typical way and was making fun of me a little.

I thought about this dare today I am sad and ashamed that I had to work so hard to be kind, disappointed that my typical response to his impatient-ness would be to throw it right back at him.

When I first decided to do this challenge I thought that the purpose was to see if my kind acts would change him and by the end of the first day I already know that I was wrong. This will be about me bettering myself, taking an honest look at myself and changing the only thing that I can change…myself. I have a lot of work to do.

Tomorrow is day 2 and I am supposed to do something nice for him that is unexpected. I plan on getting up early and making him breakfast. We’ll see how it goes. :o)

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onyou...
Mar. 31, 2009 at 11:35 AM

I think this is awesome, not cheesy! I saw that book in the store and thought how cool is that?!?! I do not have a husband but I think I would definitely take this challenge on as well...

Good Luck and seriously keep me posted. I am interested in your journey! :)

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jennmom1
Mar. 31, 2009 at 11:37 AM

onyourterms -

Thank you so much for the encouragement. I really appreciate it! :o) I will be journaling everyday about what the outcome was for that day and I'll be posting it here ....for 40 days! lol

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ohwrite
Mar. 31, 2009 at 11:45 AM

I like this alot!! I need to get the book too....I'll be checking in on your journal. Hope it goes well.

You reminded me of something we learned in an engagment encounter. The instructor told us sometimes it's easy to love, but sometimes it's hard....on the hard days you have to get up in the morning and  "make a decision to love"......sometimes I forget that!!

I'm going to do this with you! Thanks

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twins...
Mar. 31, 2009 at 11:48 AM

I look foward to reading your on going journals in this journey.  Good luck with this.  I truly hope it helps.  I have the movie Fireproof here at the house for my husband and I to watch together.  The movie is base on Love Dare.

My BIL is reading this with his men's group at his church.  He and my sister have a good relationship, but are hoping to enhance it. 

 

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jennmom1
Mar. 31, 2009 at 11:57 AM

ohwrite -

Thanks! I hope it is successful. I am about to write my second journal because I already did the dare for day 2. Some of the dares are a lot harder to actually do than they sound. :o) I want to hear how it's going for you too!

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jennmom1
Mar. 31, 2009 at 11:59 AM

twinsplus2more -

My husband and I have both seen the movie Fireproof. We both cried. lol I don't think he'll catch on to what I'm doing though. :o)

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nurse...
Mar. 31, 2009 at 12:40 PM

Good luck, I hope this works out well for your family.

 

                                                angel

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Maheli
Mar. 31, 2009 at 4:35 PM

I saw the movie and it was a good movie, I will keep reading your journal and don't quit, for at least you tried. Good Luck!!

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