MISS YOU!! && other updates

[elizabeth.mary]

I'm really missing my man right now! He's training in the field. He's been doing all this training lately. Plus he'll be gone all of next month it's really making me realize how little time I have left with him before he deploys.

I haven't been able to sleep for the past 3 weeks if he's not with me. I'm really not sure why. He just makes me feel comfortable and safe I guess. It's kinda' getting on my nerves though, because I'm so fucking tired.

I'm seriously starting to think I'm pregnant. I haven't missed a period yet, but my last period wasn't really a period it was...mucousy and it just wasn't right. My head has been hurting, I've been emotional, my stomach has been queasy and I've been like endlessly tired and having trouble sleeping as I said before (it could be he's not here or pregnancy). In a way it's exciting if I am, but at the same time it makes me sad, because he won't be here when the baby's born if I am. I went through labor without the baby's father last time and it was kind of depressing. I just wanted to wait until he got back from Afghanistan in 2010 before we have a kid. If it happens though, it happens and I'll deal with being alone for most of the pregnancy.\

But DAAAMMNN do I miss him right now. I can't wait until Thursday when I can go pick him up.

CLAY I LOVE YOU BABY!!!