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Apr 7, 2009 at 10:29 AM
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Well we spent all of Saturday in the hospital. I started to bleed old blood and cramp Wednesday. It started to get worse Saturday morning so I went to the ER. Yeah I can't wait to get the bill for that... Anyway. I tested positive for pregnancy but when they did an ultrasound there was nothing in my uterus. I haven't had a period in three months, my belly started to get bigger, I had morning sickness, but they said my HcG count was 3100. That of a woman 4 weeks pregnant. So I miscarried really early and just haven't expelled anything till now.

I'm actually ok... I'm just glad to know what's going on. I'm also glad that the baby wasn't bigger, with arms, legs, and a heartbeat. They said that since there wasn't even a placenta or anything that it probably gave out in the still cellular stage of pregnancy. So that is releving that the baby didn't suffer and die. I'm sad, I really was looking forward to this baby. I know we don't need another baby right now but I was really getting used to the idea.

So last night I got home from work around 10. I started to put the groceries that I had just bought from work up when I had the most debilitating cramps. I replaced my pad and went back to work, I eventually had to lie down and when I did, I bled right out of the pad. I rushed to the toilet and GUSH. I spent the next 2 hours on the toilet bleeding profusely. I will be extremely willing to say I went through LABOR PAINS sitting on the toilet. I had to breathe through the contractions. Thank God Adam was there, after about an hour and a half of sitting there he was talking to me like normal and then I got dizzy and everything went black. If he hadn't been right there I would have fallen on the floor. He said I turned white as a sheet and shook for about a minute. I came to with the strangest body tingle. I was so high. My skin was hot and clammy. I was passing decent sized clots but not as big as after I had Olivia. I would sit there and there would be a constant little stream of blood dripping from me. You could literally hear it hitting the water. Every 2 or 3 minutes I would have a horrible contraction, pass a clot or two and gush. For almost 2 hours.

I finally had to lay down. I just couldn't sit there and bleed anymore. I got one of Olivia's diapers and stuffed it down into my undies and had adam put a trash bag and a towel on the bed and I just laid down. The Dr gave me a darvocet scrip and Adam went and filled it. He got me some iron pills, some depends (lol) and fixed me a really nice fruit salad. Strawberries, bananas, and an orange. Once I laid down I only had a few more major contractions. I took 2 darvocet, an iron pill a big ol glass of water. I started feeling SO much better. I couldn't get out of bed though.

This morning I'm better, not 100%. Better though.

I don't know what I'd do or would have done last night if it weren't for Adam. He is the best. No matter what crap he's put me and this family through, and trust me it's alot, he's still a really good partner. I love him so much.

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