To whom this may concern, {Send Some Positive thoughts my way.}

[monijane]

You know who you are,

I am having problems. I am in a rut. The end of my rope.

I am tired of the BS with people. I just want to tell people that is is not my problem, just leave me alone.

I feel trapped. I  feel hurt. I feel sad. I am spinning in circles, confused in sort.

Tired of hearing . How I am a bad person, parent and everything else.

I am a dam good Mom. I am loving by the way I can Love other peole just not those who put me down all the time. Get off my back. I already feel like If I just disappeared everyone else would be better off.

I won't look back ethier, not even once. I know how others feel when they have had enough and are stressed to the max.

I have been there doing that.  I thought if I wrote this I would feel better. I don't feel better.

I am emotionally exhausted, mentally exhausted! I can't take it anymore! I can't do it anymore!

I just want to run so far away. I need to be me again. I lost myself. I am so lost.

Hell I don't know what I need or what to do anymore. I think I need to seek some help.

That is a fact.  I  must go rest now

[jjamom]

Apr. 13, 2009 at 11:19 PM

I am so sorry you are feeling so down.  I've been there.  I feel some days like I'm in a rut and spinning in circles too.  You can do it, if for no one else, then for your kids.  I totally hear you!

[Kids4life672]

Apr. 13, 2009 at 11:26 PM

Can't believe my eyes. You sound just like "me." I feel the same way. You are not alone. I feel like that most of the time but, when my kids hug me and tell me they love me, I feel like a whole new person. Do you have kids? Why are you so depressed? I have been depressed my whole life, I think? We need to get together and chat, feel free to leave me a message, I am willing to give any advice you and I both need. Please, reach out, I am here. I know we don't know each other but, together, we can do what is right. Take Care, Megan.

[blindavongranny]

Apr. 13, 2009 at 11:49 PM

Monijane, I know how you feel.  I have been in the same place that you are now.  I am 72 years old and legally blind and I have finally found who I am and I like myself.

The reason I said what I did above is that this what you have to work on.  First, you are a good person and noone can tell you anything different.  No one knows you better than yourself.  God made you and you are an  unique person.  He make us all different but no one was made better.  Write down all the good things about yourself that you can think of.  Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are beautiful because God only makes beautigul people that are unique in their own ways.

I would like to be your friend and to share with you how I have come to the  place that I am now and it is the greatest feeling in the world.  It takes time, starting with baby steps but praising yourself and thanking God as you go.  In the end.  Other peoples thoughts do not matter.  It sounds selfish but let me tell you you must love yourself before you can love anyone else.  You can take other people thoughts and choose to keep them or to throw them away.  I only keep the good positive thoughts,  All negative thoughts I discard. 

From the time that we are young babies, we are controlled by others thoughts.  Some are meaningful but some are just plains unthoughtout thoughts that another person thought of.  We were programed to think this way and we grew up like this.  We never knew how to think our own thoughts and Own Our Own Mind.  I am with a group now that is teaching me how to do this and I will share everything I know with you.  My daily prayer is the Serenty Prayer: "God grant me the serenty to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know th difference."  I asked how to know the difference and he replied, You cannot change other people, places or things, we can only change ourselves.  What an awaking that was.  My other prayer is for God to put the people into my life that he wants me to share with and to say the words that he wants me to say.  You are one of those people God has sent to me.

Hope some of this helps and please feel free to call me at 417-426-5931 and we can continue to share

God Bless

Maggie.