Life as a Grandmother for the first time

[mslisajoy]

Three months ago my daughter, charlyne nicole, gave me the most wonderful gift ever, my first grandson. The very moment I held this child in my arms my life changed , as if the whole world was never to be the same. I began to feel emotions I had not felt so long ago. Holding a baby in my arms, taking care of him, smelling his delicate skin, and just  loving him  for being the special angel God placed in our lives. My heart began to beat fast, and my eyes were filled with tears of joy. My baby girl had just become a mommy. How fast did this happen. My little girl, now a woman and the mother  of a beautiful baby boy. His name is biblical, Zachariah Ezequial. As I watch my daughter with Zaky I feel so proud of her, she is such a good mommy, very maternal and loving.

I had always loved being a mommy. Taking care of my three children. Time goes by so fast, and when you realize it, your babies are all grown up. They go on with their life, and even though we understand this is the nature of life, we feel an emptiness inside of our soul,  an aching that just does not go away . I recall moments of laughter, when we would play together, just have fun. My children  loved to cook with me, and we made each moment together special. I really did enjoy my babies, now  turned men and a full grown woman. My grandson has brought back many feelings kept tucked inside of the depths of my soul. My girl stayed with me for two weeks after her C-section, and when she left my heart sunk. I cried my eyes out. I know this sounds selfish, she has her  own home, a loving husband that cares very much for her and their baby, but that did not change the fact that I loved having her with me.

I am very grateful to our Lord Jesus for giving me my grandson, to allow me to have three wonderful children, to have so many blessings in my life. This experience of becoming a grandmother is far greater than any words can express, it is a heaven sent feeling. For all you mommys , please take time to enjoy your children , take time out to play with them, listen to them, remember that time goes by so fast. Make every day special with your children, even in the most simple things. Enjoy thier pressence in your life. Make them feel special, heard,and seen. When your child asks you a question, I know many times we are pressed for time, many chores to do, but please, stop and give your child the attention he or she deserves, it may be only but a moment to us, but to our children it means " I am important", and they feel loved. We are their world, their everything. They feel secure with us. They need us to hug them, kiss them, tuck them in their beds at night, read them bedtime stories, look at the clouds and find funny shapes. Listen to the leaves as they move softly in the winds breeze. Eat with your children, and ask them how they are, how do they feel. Validate their feelings.  Let us not take these special angels for granted. They are a part of our soul, a part of God, sent to us to take care of, they do not belong to us, for they are souls, just like us, having an earthly experience. God trusted us to guide them through this journey we call  life. May all of our life be filled with blessings, may we find happiness in the innocence of children, may we be like children , pure of heart and soul. Love and light to all who read this journal.

A friend in spirit, 

Lisa Joy