Recession! Ughhhh!

[Mommee3]

Okay, until now we have been lucky enough to avoid being "involved" in the recession. We were doing very well. We have no credit debt so that surely helped. Moved our family to another state for a great paying job than slam, bamm, thank you mam! My hubby gets laid off, last hired first fired BS! So here we are. Living in a new town where we know not one person. No family here noone to maybe help a lil. Than we find out we are totally being ripped off on rent, and they are BSing us on fixing the roof. Its been leaking for a month and a half. We are running out of the little money we have left.  One of our vehicles is broken. We have bills that are starting to pile and im afraid to pay them with the lil money we have because im afraid we may need it to eat. So i only pay what i need to pay to ensure nothing gets shut off. We are both looking for jobs so hard. I get up at 5 and the first thing I do is go online to any and all websites and classifieds that I can find and immediately respond to all new postings, even if i doubt i would get the positions. So far Ive sent over 40 resumes and have gone around and filled out apps. My hubby does the same. Its hard being from out of town. Noone seems to want to pay the long distance to check our references, and they think we are going to move back to FL. We dont even have that option. It cost quite a bit of money to move here and we dont have nearly enough to move back. plus where would we stay.? and through it all you have to make sure you dont show the children how upset and stressed you get because it isnt anything they should be concerened with. I mean theres nothing they could do to help so why put that burden on them. although the oldest does notice daddys home all the time. and wonders why we dont ever go anywhere anymore, or why she cant have dessert at school or order a year book, or get books from scholastic. my little book worm. Sometimes i just want to cry. Its hard when you want to be mad at some one and put blame on someone but theres noone to blame or be mad at.  I did have one interview...count it....one! And it didnt last very long. On the drive home from it I got really sick to my stomach. I almost lost in the car. I had to roll down the window to get some fresh air. I have never  gotten sick while driving. I was sick for the rest of the day and night. Im not sick i dont have a cold i was confused. My hubby said its probly anxiety and stress. Ughhh!  Whats going on out there. Why are companies who have tons and tons of money being stingy.  Laying of people with families to support so they can save more money. Replacing hard workerswith machines, and computers. Some people are so greedy while others are busting there butts living off food stamps, working double shifts for minmum wage which probly doesnt even cover there bills. People keep loosing their houses, houses they worked hard for and made into homes. Children are becoming homeless living in tent cities and cars. Cars being taken so its hard for people to even go to work. Bill collectors calling people non stop harassing them for money they dont have. People are starving and desperate, breaking into homes, stealing food, pawning anything they have just to get by. Its sad really it is. I mean how did this happen? This isnt the America I remember. The land of the free home of the brave, the country where dreams come true. All is possible. Not anymore. Now its the land of the unemployed and the home of the poor. And its seems like almost everyone is suffering. People become jealous of those who are well to do, because they are not. All we want is to be able to support the families we love. And when we no longer can its the worst feeling of all. To not be able to provide for your family. To go hungry so your children can eat. To go cold so your children can be warm. And its not like people arent trying. Its just that there doesnt seem to be alot out there. And what little there is everyones going for it. Some people are alot more qualified. I almost begged for a job I mean literally begged. I dont know what else to say. This just really doesnt seem right, fair, or even possible to get out of. Things will never be the same in America. Soon out dollar wont mean anything. Houses will never be worth what they were. Oh and another thing. This really erks me. Im not like, we you know, but the job my hubby had that he got laid of from.  Well they had a lot of illegals working there and i mean they were illegal no ssn or nothing. You think any of them got laid off. Nope. And they are getting paid more than he was under the table no taxes. What a slap in the face. This is total BS. Im mad as hell about  that. Im sure theres work in Mexico. thats all for now, im really heated!