God is Gracious and Almighty

[jazzybabe_782]

A lot of you have read a poem I posted on here a while ago called My Everything...it was a poem about my husband.  I was in a really dark place in my life during that time.  I had lost my daughter about 6 months or so before and my husband was talking to someone else.  I wrote a poem to him expressing that he was the most important thing in my life.  You know what though, thats just not true.  I wrote the poem like he was God or something, I had put him up on a pedastool and was almost worshipping him.  God should always be the most important thing in our lives.  He says not to worship anything or anyone but Him.  He is a jealous God, and for a good reason, he created us, he is the Alpha and the Omega.  We are not, we are his children and we should respect him and who we are to him.  It doesn't matter what we do he is so patient with us, if we fall away or turn our backs on him he is always there for us when we decide to wipe away the filth from our eyes to see God for what and who he is.  I've went through a lot of unneccisary trouble and strife in my life so far because I've been on the wrong path.  Not because of what I needed because of my selfishness and what I wanted.  I was living worldly, in the filth of the easy road.  Now I've come to realize that we can't live that way.  Everyone wants to go to Heaven, everyone wants to live in a perfect Godly world.  We don't deserve to be there, but God wants us there and why is it so hard to just live by his word??  Because we are our own destruction, we listen to the negativity that runs through our minds that Satan plants there.  I've been reading on Joyce Meyer's Battlefield of the Mind.  Satan's greatest tool is patience.  Our destruction isn't instantaneous, or overnight it is something built over time.  Usually starting in our childhood and building and progressing from there.  Children of God have to stand up and say NO!!!  Pray to God and say NOOO!!! to Satan and his treachery.  He is devious, malachious, cruel, and above all deceitful.  I have inner demons that I might never conquer in my life, but now I know that God is on my side, not against me.  Sometimes it is so easy to sit and say,"Oh God, why do you let this happen to me, why aren't you stopping this and helping me?"  The reason, because we haven't put our faith in him, we haven't prayed our worry and fears the way we should.  I'm having a serious problem, and I have written Brandy about it.  I can't get past my problems without Christ, I can't do anything on my own.  None of us can.  You always hear that God doesn't give us more than we can handle.  That doesn't mean that we can handle it on our own no, but through him we can.  Rejoice in that!!!  We have a loving and caring Father in Heaven that is always by our side.  He is there to fight our battles for us.  You know I thought my world was over when my daughter died.  That just wasn't true.  I still have a beautiful son, I have a wonderful family, and I still have my life to live.  I REJOICE NOW!!  I know that my daughter has the best of it.  She was never touched by sin, she will never know hurt or any negativity.  She was perfect, her body might have been to little and premature but her soul was perfect.  God doesn't make anything that isn't perfect.  Everything that he makes or has made has been perfect in the way it is suppose to be.  I might not right now know what to do in my life, but looking back and seeing the destruction I have caused in my life and my family's life.  I know that it isn't because God had turned his back on me, its because I had turned my back on him.  Because my prayers weren't answered the way I wanted them to be.  You know what Thank God For UnAnswered Prayers.  At the same time that isn't true though, he does answer our prayers, just not always the way we expect them to be.  Ok I'm rambling I know but I feel a need to tell my story now.  I want others to feel the absolute love and power of Christ, that I have experienced.  Some might look at my life and say where?  I look at my life now and say, when not?  When has he ever not been in any of our lives.  Even if you are a lost soul he is there for you waiting for you to take that step to accept your Lord Jesus into your heart, and to become a Christan.  He is there for everyone, not just me or for the Christians that have already taken that step, but for everyone.  It is our job as his vessels to preach the word.  We are his church, everywhere we go we carry church with us.  Church isn't just a building, you can have church anywhere, because church is in our hearts, in the words we speak when we speak of God.  May God be with all of you!!!  I can feel him wanting to work through me.  God Bless everyone of you!!!

[NannyB.]

Apr. 22, 2009 at 8:45 AM

I am very proud of you!!!