Day 26 - Love is responsible...

[jennmom1]

Sorry about the delay. I have just finished working 304 hours this month and I've had a bug too. There was just no time to journal on here and I apologize. :o)

Love is responsible....

When you judge another, you condemn yourself, since you, the judge, do the same things. -Romans 2:1

I was supposed to take time to pray through my areas of wrongdoing. I was to ask for God's forgiveness, then humble myself enough to admit them to my spouse. It was to be done sincerely  and truthfully and then I was to ask my spouse for forgiveness as well.

This is an area where I know that I struggle. I often see myself as right or believe that I usually think things through and believe that most would have responded the same way that I did. I know that thinking is wrong and it keeps me from holding myself accountable for my own actions sometimes.

I gave this a lot of thought and, even though it's been a long time, I remembered when my husband and I would fight and I would get so angry that I would scream back at him and, sometimes, I would even call him names. I knew that calling him names hurt his feelings...he even told me so on multiple occasions; yet I still did it. I'm embarrassed that I did that and I actually feel embarrassed just now as I'm typing this. It's not something that I want to admit that I did.

I talked to my husband later on and I asked if he remembered when I used to act that way and call him names. He said that he did. I told him that I was so sorry for doing that to him. That even though it's been a long time I had never apologized and I wanted to now. I told him that I knew it hurt his feelings and that I was sorry for that. He said it was okay and just let it go.

My husband is a very forgiving person...much more than I have ever been. He doesn't hold grudges..ever. I love that about him.

[twinsplus2more]

Apr. 30, 2009 at 4:10 PM

Another great post.

[bfm11107]

Apr. 30, 2009 at 4:59 PM

Blessing blessing blessing : )

[onyourterms]

Apr. 30, 2009 at 5:06 PM

Still going awesome!! I am glad you found peace with this and apologized ~ Way To Go!!

[Maheli]

Apr. 30, 2009 at 10:25 PM

Glad to hear things are looking good