How do I love thee

[1hotnana]

These  last few weeks have been a roller coaster with the ride ending Friday as I called from work for the paramedics to respond to my home. My husband called and then hung up. The doctors said I was smart to think to call from work.  I was acting in fear of losing the man that I love in countless ways. I came home tonight only to sleep because I havent slept since yesterday at noon. We were in the ER for 9 long hours before he was taken to his room upstairs. I looked at this man in the bed and I wanted him to get up lets go home. They have run coutless tests and state he will need two more before they let him go on Monday. He is stable and it was not a heart attack, but it may be a blockage, or he is throwing clots. Despite it all he is in great spirits and we both know that God has him in his hands. I love this man and show him daily but last night I thought what if I havent shown him enough. My heart sank like a battleship wounded in war. Right now my room is lonely and my arms are empty to hold him as I do at night. I miss his train wreck snoring and more over I miss him saying "love you babe". God take care of my hearts love, take care of my best friend, take care of Armando ! Thank you for listening MaMas just feeling a bit out of sorts tonight.

[vintagechicken]

May. 3, 2009 at 1:00 AM

  Stay Strong!!

[vycki9hse]

May. 4, 2009 at 11:36 AM

Oh Mama...to have that kind of love is a wonderful thing! Im praying for you and Your Armando! Hugs Mama!!