Mike's First Week At Basic Training

[emmaleejean]

Kind of a misleading title seeing as I have no clue how his first week went. He got to call me today but it was just to give me his address and say he loved me. He didn't have time to say anything else. I told him it was so good to hear his voice. He didn't respond. I have a feeling that if he had tried to respond he would have started crying like I was already doing. Also I'm sure he had someone breathing down his neck and didn't want to show "weakness" I guess.

This week has been hard on me. But I'm sure its been harder on Mike. I at least get to see our son everyday and cuddle with him. I can cry as much as I need to. He can't. He sleeps in a bunk bed with no one. He only has 1 picture of our son with him. He doesn't have any letters from us yet.

I've been just very upset, but I think a lot of it is feeling sorry for myself. I've been stuck in a rut of self pity because he's gone. I've tried being strong for Tristan. Its just been hard and I need to get myself out of this. I'm depressed. I don't want to be. I want to be happy with Tristan. I want to stop pitying myself and worry about keeping my son happy and looking forward to seeing my husband again. I need to pick myself up and be positive about this.

Yes, its hard that he's gone. But this will make us a better family. This will be a good thing. It is a GOOD thing!

bah. Now I'm just rambling. Thank you allergy medications. Today though I'm just going to start turning around my attitude and making this a positive experience. The Flying Spaghetti Monster knows I'll need to get used to this!

[mrsjosey1018200]

May. 3, 2009 at 10:48 PM

aww. i know its hard. i am so sorry. just hang in there, we will all be here for you **hugs**

[Aasiyah]

May. 4, 2009 at 12:06 AM

Girl stop that crying.. and start writing those letters!!! Send him cards.. it will help so much. Do it every single day. A lifetime ago, i was married to my x.. and he went into the army..and that is  how we survived.. letters! every day he wrote to me and every day i wrote to him. 

hugs

[Aasiyah]

May. 4, 2009 at 12:07 AM

oh..and the flying speghetti monster doesn't exists... but God does.. maybe i can find something from God.. or his prophet that i can send to you to so you can read that will help you in this time.  let me know if that is ok?

[heatkab]

May. 4, 2009 at 11:28 AM

Make sure you write him everyday. This helps all the guys get through. I did this for my two best friends who went into the Army and I even occasionally wrote to my BIL and his brother when he went into the AF and his bro went into the Navy. My sis had a hard time when my BIL went into the AF but it has been the BEST decision they could have made for them and now their son. If you ever need to talk PM me. I come from a military family and most people around me have been in. I can relate to a lot of things. As far as choices go the best branch of the military for families is the AF. You guys did a great job choosing that route.

[mama4Christ361]

May. 5, 2009 at 8:27 AM

Hun, him being in basic does suck, trust me, I remember when dh was in, and when I was in. I know both sides of the story. Just remember, this is a GREAT thing, and will not only make y'all a better family, it makes our country better, stronger, and full of hereos, just like your dh. Tell him I said Thank very much for being so brave and courageous. he is a hero and has my complete respect and eterenal gratitude for the sacrifices he has made for our country.