So Now That I Have To Take Care Of My Mom......

[purlpeclover]

 Me and my mom a few years ago... she'll be 91 this November but in the last 2 weeks she has had a severe change in her life . one week ago she needed surgery to save her life. Her right leg was amputated above the knee. She stayed in the hospital tue - fri and was moved to a nursing home/ rehab center and is hating every moment of it ! Begging me to take her home breaking my  heart and with my car broken down I get rides as often as I can to go be with her. Her demencia is getting more progressed and it's so difficult to see her like this.

Since my dad passed away 12 yrs ago this coming December it's been hard on her, then loosing all her independence made life worse and now this.

Since my divorce in 96' raising my son and daughter has been a journey like no other and my mom has helped support me financially as much as she is able and now, since he (my ex) passed away 2 yrs ago and I loosing my job the day after his passing I have not been able to fing a job - to this day I am still unemployed and my son daughter and I live on one single social security check once a month of $659.00.

Mom would always help out whenever we needed it and I would pay her back once a month when my check came in.... It's like mom taking care of me all over again and I'm not proud of it at all and now especially, because I'm scared to death that without her being able to heelp me now that she's incompacitated what will happen ?

Is this not a disgrace? I am ashamed of myself.

I am a Wedding Planner but have no business and with my personal inhabitions preventing me to going back to flippin' hambugers, or waitressing there are no jobs in the office for me anywhere for the last 2 years.....

I pray each night beginning with my thanks and appreciations..... what else can I do?

[karriewren]

May. 6, 2009 at 1:43 AM

I don't know what to say. i was just going to say that we have an amputee where I work at, She's 88 and walks with her prosethetic leg, so don't give up hope.