I am so frustrated and scared, what is going to happen

[biggunsdolphin]

          I don't know what I am going to do. I am so frustrated. I have been trying to get pregnant for over a year now. Still hasn't happened. My old man came home yesterday and they have cut his hours. We are strapped as it is. I just started this new business and I am going to have to make enough money to make up for what we are losing from his job. My new business was supposed to be extra income, not really a second income. 
          I started AF today to top it all off. I cramped like all get out yesterday, and was kind of hoping that it would be implantation, wrong. I am starting to get stressed out and frustrated. I can't tell my SO because I am the calming influence for him. If he knew how worried I am, he would be so much worse off. He feels like he is not providing enough for me and it is tearing him up. I am doing my best to assure him, so I can't tell him how scared and upset I am. I have a really good man. We have our problems, but who doesn't. He goes above and beyond to take care of me and I don't want to make things even harder for him. 
          I am doing everything that I can to keep my head screwed on straight and keep a positive attitude. I am doing what I can to keep his attitude positive, and not show him just how scared I am. I think we are going to have to sell my car to get out from underneath the payments. He is willing to sell his truck because he knows how much I love my car, but I know that we can't live without his truck, my car is expendable. (I am sitting here crying, something I haven't done) I know I am not the only person going through this right now. I just thought that maybe we would be alright. He has worked at his job for 6 years and he is the only welder that they have. He is very good at what he does and works for the oil field. I guess I just set my hopes too high for us to be alright.

           What is going to happen???? That is the question that scares me the most.

[mrs.reece]

May. 6, 2009 at 10:40 AM

you just have to set a little tighter budget and see how things go from there! we are in the same predicument since we finally got our own house! it sucks but what we do is instead of going out we have our friends over for a movie night once a week and we take turns with who cooks! just a thought! good luck with everything!