It's been awhile ...

[unsuspected]

I used to write in here at least once a week, sheesh ... during the seperation it was a few times a week.  But, things change.  I miss having that time to unwind and get my thoughts sorted out.

So here's the update ... as for sorting anything out, there's a lot going on, so I'm not expecting much, LOL.

First there's Granma, she left the hospital a few weeks ago.  She's now in a "Rehabilitation Center", where they are supposed to get her back on her feet to be able to go back home.  I haven't had a chance to visit her since she's been in this new place because the kids have been in sick, in intermitant cycles for the past few weeks!  And I don't want to bring any of our cooties around her. My dad goes to see her almost everyday and it's been really hard on him because he already works such long hours.  But, I get most of my reports about how she's doing through my dad.  They took out her trachiotomy (?  No clue about the spelling.  But they had to put a tube in her neck to force the oxygen because she wasn't able to breath on her own.)  But they just took that out yesterday which means she's better able to breath on her own, she still has the oxygen tubes in her nose though. 

I don't know when, or if she really be leaving that place any time soon.  No one really wants to say how she's really doing, I guess.  My dad yelled at the head nurse there a few days ago (and my dad is NOT a yeller!)  My Granma isn't getting proper care there.  They should be helping her to be more mobile on her own and instead they just want to leave her with a pee pad and make her pee the bed.  She actually got hurt a few days ago because she was ringing for help so she could get up and use the restroom. No one came, so she tried to get out of bed herself and she fell.  She hit her head and her shoulder.  My dad was livid.  I just can't get how they ca treat people like that.  She's still a person, with dignity and she requires some respect.  It's their JOB to care for her,and yeah ... that includes helping her to the restroom! 

I miss her.  I can't wait for the kids to have a few non sick days in a row where no one is coughing or snotting or barfing so that I can go see her.

On the Robert and I, marriage front stuff ... UGH.  We're in a crappy situation right now.  First off, he's a carpenter.  And ya da ya da ya da, with the economy and all ... it's a miracle he even still has a job.  Well, his company has work in ... VEGAS.  Yeah, woo hoo.  So next week and the week after he's going to be going to Vegas for work, but it's really hard for me to not see it as a mini vacation for him.  I'm pissed.  It would be hard for ANY wife, in ANY marriage to happily send her hubs off to Vegas for two weeks.  But come on!!!!  He's supposedly going to be working 4 ten hour days and then coming home for 3 day weekends (we'll see).  It's a lot of wear and tear on his old, crappy car.  But more than that ... I just can't stand the idea.  What the heck?!? 

He says he's just going to go to work, (they're installing stuff at some military base out there, not really IN Vegas, but close enough!) and then come back to the hotel and just talk to me on his cell until he goes to bed ......... ? Yeah, because I have nothing better to do, like care for his three kids and I actually have time to just chill with my cell attached to my ear so I can listen to him breath?

Whatever.  SO yeah ... no clue how I'm gonna survive that little party. 

I don't know.

Ugh, my Kara is mid "I'm NOT Gonna Take A Nap" freak out ... I gotta go.

[lovetwins89]

May. 7, 2009 at 9:37 AM

First I want to say that sorry about gramma, it does sound like she is doing better. I am a respiratory therapist so the trachiostomy and the tube is what I do in my job and her getting those out is a huge improvement. As a matter of fact, the majority of patients that are trached (our lingo) never get it out, so good for her. Very normal to still have the nasal cannula in her nose. I get how you feel about the vegas thing, ugh. I don't know what to say because I don't know his current track record with trust. Hopefull, you no longer have any reason not to trust him. Maybe I am misreading the tone of this journal and you are not worried about him stepping out, you don't come out and say that.