I didn't realize that I would still have a hard time this time of year. I figured that I kept my baby, so everything should be fine. Instead, I've been on the verge of tears for the last 2 days. I couldn't even spend my baby's birthday with him like I planned. I ended up taking him to daycare and going in to work. I haven't wanted to be alone and I cry when I am. I didn't expect this bout of depression or emotions or whatever it is.