Meez

[TheFringe]

 So I have been thinking about making on of those Meez avatars. After checking out all the options I realized that I just fit into to many categories.

Iwork VERY part time. Have 3 kids-2 boys and a girl-16, 12, 9. I home school the younger 2. I tried to homeschool my oldest but he just wasn't cooperating. For the homeschoolers out there be assured that I tried EVERYTHING possible, enlisted  the help of my co-op, my friends, and our portfolio advisor before putting him into the high school. Of course now he's failing 3 of 5 classes and has told me he learned more in the 1.5 years that I kept him home than in all his public school years combined!

I grew up in a single parent home. Mom has 4 girls so we're all very opinioniated, strong willed, and independent. Not such a good combination for settling down and getting married. Unfortunately we don't speak to each other anymore. Only the twins are still close to each other.

I've maintained a marriage for 17 years. To a pot head. The longest time he's had clean is 9 months. And then it was only because he was trying to get a good job. As in all marriages we've had our ups and downs. Unfortunately it's been more down than up. But I have this flaw that keeps me married. The one that says marriage vows are supposed to be taken seriously and never broken. And I'm afraid that if I do get divorced that God will be mad at me.

So about God. I firmly believe that there is one ENTITY. If that ENTITY stands in front a fun house mirror he/she/it appears like God to some, Allah to some, the Goddess to some, Buddha to some....you get the picture. All religions stem from the same ENTITY. All things are have to be good and bad. If you've never experienced bad than how do you know when it's good and vice versa. It's man who tends to step in and say "mine" is better than yours or is the only true and right one. Hope that makes some kind of sense. I go to a conservative church but for the people not the beliefs so much. Very hypocritical I know. They probably have some idea that I'm a liberal democrat who is pro-choice and had no problem with gay marriages. We just don't talk about it. The youth pastor and I butt heads often however. He keeps trying to reach our Wednesday night youth group attenders by making the lessons based on Sundays sermons. HELLO!!! They're not there on Sunday mornings so there's no relevancy for them. He keeps hoping that by discussing the sermons more youth will start coming to Sunday morning services.

I have a tattoo and yesterday I finally got my nose pierced. I don't make decisions lightly. Took me 5 years to make the final decision and have it done. I'd love another tattoo but they're pricey. I want to die my hair a cherry cola red (it's my sisters color) with a purple stripe. A bit odd for a 36 year old but that's what I want. Besides I can always play it off as being colors of The Passion. hehehe. See I'm twisted like that.

I take in all the kids on the Fringe of society in my town. Hence my screen name. Skaters, goths, young women with no self esteem who think they can be loved by giving their bodies away. You get the drift. It takes a toll on my little two so I try to balance it with time spent individually with each of them. I just can't turn these kids away. Their parents don't seem to care. The school definately doesn't care. The local churches, including my own, don't care. It drives me crazy.

So how do you create a Meez for a someone like me? There's a million different aspects of my life all seemingly contradictory, in one body. But I'm happy being me. Most of the time.