5-18-09

[lilmama.4]

My kids have two more weeks and two days of school left for the year. They are counting them down.

My oldest got awards (mommy so proud) She got the President's Award for Educational Excellence and the  Duke University Award.

Still meet with my 8 year olds IEP team every month, and set up her summer program this last one. She has had a very up and down week. She also had a bad panic attack (but a really hard night all together) last Friday night at her softball game. I almost had it out with a mother, but knew that would not help. She just does not understand what my daughter lives with and her struggles. And we will have some great days and some not so great, but will never give up. So I was nice to the mom. My daughter wants to drop out cause she feels so rejected by the team, even tho her sister is also on the team and cheers her on, it's just so hard, kids and parents are so mean :( I don't want her to drop out, I want her to finish what she started, and everywhere we go we will run into people that are going to be like this, You don't understand unless you live with this. But it breaks my heart.

She agreed to try playing again, but I will be sitting right next to the dug out in case she needs me for anything.

That is not going to be to fun for me also cause I will be sitting closer to some of the other moms that I have over heard talking about me. I am totally ok with people having there own opinions, and we live in a world that judges and we are all guilty of that, just wish that they would talk about me more behind my back then with me so close ; |

I am going to see my doctor every week now. It's so weird to be this far along. I am past the point of all my early babies, and now thinking I for sure am going full term. I have a lot more peace about that now. I know last week was really hard and scary, but God is in control. I just have to keep remembering that and giving him my fears.

I bought the baby a outfit for his/her first baby pictures. At first I was not going to due to not having money and already having to get a chunk out of my savings(I am only working 2 days a week right now) But then I just needed to. They are so cute. I am also making baby potato a blanket. I made all my kids one when they were babies.

Well off to housework and laundry (O SUCH A FUN FUN DAY)