I did it, I am free for now...

[drunkswife]

Wednesday morning I was so scared, I had to appear in court to apply for a permanent protective order (2 yrs) and I thought I was going to have to testify to what happened the night my AH threatened to beat the s*** out of me. I was having to go over it time and time again with my lawyer to make sure I didn't forget anything. I was so worried I was going to forget a part of it, remembering how scared I was, was the easy part. Thinking he was going to sneak up behind me and hit me with something and I would leave my son without a mother, it was terrifying! My AH's attorney came in with an offer of a civil restraining order which is not much of anything. So I denied it and went ahead with my plans to go for the full 2 yr protective order in court. Then my AH did something I didnt expect, he agreed to the protective order as long as he could have supervised visits with our son based on my approval. I agreed to it and then the judge said thank you for agreeing before you came into court. My brother thinks he did it because the only thing he cares about is our son but I think he did it for me, so I wouldn't have to go through it in court, reliving what he had done to me.  I feel so sad everytime I look at our pictures together, I wonder how he is doing but I am glad I am not living with him anymore though! I can breath again!