I wish I was more motivated to get out there and go to school and get a good job. I'm scared most of the time. I think I'm not right for just about everything. I know I'm smart. I have alot of common sense and pick up on things easily but I feel like I know squat when it comes to what it takes to have a good job nowadays. I don't even know what I want to do. There are things I'm interested in but I don't think I can make a career out of anytime soon. And I don't feel I can just go to school and forget about my financial and parental responsibilities that I have right now. A degree will help in the long run but I am afraid I won'tbe able to keep up and will shut down from overload. I don't think I can handle it. I'm afraid of wasting my time on something that will never see results. I have issues with alot. I wish I could just push my fears aside and strive for more, for better. But instead I live in general misery but I'm comfortable in it, its familiar. I feel stupid but can't change my ways. I'm trying to find a WAH job but I feel I can't relate to any of them. I don't want to talk to people by phone. I don't reach out to strangers online much less for a product. service or referral. And I am not a professional at anything. I'm so lost. And my financial and home situation makes me feel trapped. ok that's all I guess.

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May. 25, 2009 at 8:59 PM

Hi.  Don't give up.  I wish that I had gone to college and/or stayed with one job.  I went to 2 yrs. of college, but that was all.  If I had a job, I didn't stay with it if I didn't like it.  The longest I ever stayed at one job was 7 yrs.  The least was one day.  I wish that I would have just stayed at one and worked my way up in the place.  Money isn't the most important, though.  Being happy in what you are doing makes the whole rest of your life better.  And when you are happy those around you are happier, too.  I am a jail minister for women prisoners.  If I were tallking to you like I talk with them, I would tell you that reading the Bible and obeying God will turn your life around.  It has mine.  I am now happy selling from home on ebay and happy helping others.  I found myself depressed a few years ago, and I became a hospice volunteer.  I found that it did wonders for me because it took my mind off of myself, and I helped other people who really needed help.  I also saw that I didn't have things so bad after all.  Maybe you would like some type of job helping other people.  Maybe since you have a computer you could try selling on ebay and  you could stay home?  God doesn't want you to fear.  If you will let him be the Lord of your life (Jesus), he will take control and you don't have to fear.   You said you are so lost.  That's what I was before - I was lost, but now I'm found.  I mean that with all my heart.  I will pray for you and hope that I have helped you in some way - in this world and in eternity.  God bless.   

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May. 25, 2009 at 9:07 PM

I can relate to you on almost every point you made.. I can't decide if I lack the motivation or if my situation doesn't allow me the flexibility to move forward with school or career.  I'm not miserable.. just feel an urge to get going with something but like you, I'm not schooled or trained in anything so the confidence isn't there.  I felt like I could have written you post.. glad I'm not the only one in Limbo.  Sorry that didn't come out right.

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