marriage

[lisakay3]

I feel like my marriage is not repairable.  I am feeling so resentful and frustrated.  My husband has not worked for a year and a half and it does not seem he is trying to get work.  We moved around that time our of his home town into mine and I feel like he is just trying to make things bad so I will want to move back.  I like it here for the most part and know it is much better for my kids.  I am so at a lost as to what to do.  Several of my friends think I should aske my husband leave until he starts supporting our family.  I am not ready to do that and yet it is so hard to have to take care of everything.  I feel so angry all the time and it is effecting my health and my relationship with my kids.  I am just so stressed most of the time.  He has lied to me through out our whole marriage and after this last time I am just not sure if I can ever trust him again.  I know I am not perfect in our marriage.  I can be pretty controlling sometimes.  I feel like I made a bad decision when I choose him as a husband.  I am not sure if I evern love him any more.  he is all lovey dovey to me and it makes me sick.  He says all the right things but does not follow through.  I am just tierd of trying so hard to make it work.  I had a hysterectomy right before Christmas and I do not feel like I have even had a real chance to recover.  It has all been about trying to fix my marriage.  It feels so hopeless!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I have my 3 kids to think about right now.

When is it okay to leave and when do you know you have done everything you can to fix the marriage????