sad news...

[Mommy2seven]

Bad News...

Current mood:  crushed

My womb is empty and my heart is aching.

But this to shall pass.  As I feared I had a miscarriage, I am sad but relieved that my body is doing what its suppose to do right now and I will not have to go into the hospital for any kind of D&C.. where they clean out your uterus. 

When I left for my doctors office my spotting turned into bleeding, so I expected that I was having a miscarriage but was still trying to hold onto my faith.  Then when I got to my Doctors office they told me she was out delivering a baby and would be a little late so as I sat there in the office I had some really bad cramping with the urge to use that bathroom so when I went to the bathroom I passed a large clot, and I knew right then that, that was the fetus my baby :(.  I got called in and the nurse took me to the ultra sound room, I told her that I was bleeding more and passed a clot, she was like "oh ok I will tell the doctor."  I sat on the table waiting for her to come in and then to my surprise they told me my husband was there if I wanted him in the room with me I was like YA.. cause this morning when he went to work I was not bleeding just still spotting.  So with him there I broke down and the tears came ugh.. lol.. the doctor came in and did the vaginal ultra sound and found nothing, I had passed everything already.  My doctor was very reassuring about everything which was great, cause some are not.  She said see ya next pregnancy lol...

I am sad but I always remember that things could be much worse.  I do believe that maybe there was something wrong with the fetus and that is why this happened.

I am so thankful for everyone that prayed for me and gave me reassurance, I know God heard the prayers, this was just a part of a much bigger plan.  NO I don't understand everything because not all things can be explained.

What does not kill me will make me stronger :)

Love you all...

Penny

[ColtsFan1912]

May. 29, 2009 at 2:54 PM

I am so sorry for your loss :(

[Mamaof2010]

May. 29, 2009 at 3:03 PM

im sorry for your loss

[Happy-Duckof6]

May. 29, 2009 at 3:08 PM

oh my sweet, dear friend...I just went through this alittle over a month ago... I lost Charlie (since we don't know if it was a boy or girl- I named it a girl or boy name).... I am still sad...but it does get better... and for the first time last night- I tried for another one.... SO scared but prayer and strength through GOD we will get through this!--Sending you a poem I have in memory of Charlie--maybe it will give you comfort too! HUGS and I'm here if you want or need to talk--I've cried enough for the both of us and a river...hugs, Meredith

[Mommy2seven]

May. 29, 2009 at 3:54 PM

Thanks soooo much... I truly appreciate it :)

(Original Poster)

[josiahmom]

May. 29, 2009 at 4:26 PM

I am so sorry you lost the baby.

[bhwrn1]

May. 29, 2009 at 7:12 PM

So sorry, Penny.

[LiFeIsMagical]

May. 29, 2009 at 8:09 PM

Again i am so sorry for your loss. everything happens for a reason, even if it stinks right now. prayers for you and your family

[SVSASHER]

May. 29, 2009 at 8:54 PM

in my prayers

[Armywife218]

May. 29, 2009 at 9:21 PM

Oh my goodness!  I am so sorry to hear about your loss!  My heart hurts for you sweetie and my thoughts are with you and your family.

[MommaK2007]

May. 29, 2009 at 11:34 PM

Praying for God's comfort to envelop you.