Just a little vent..I am warning you now I sound very whiney..

[ebbierowe]

you know I realize things could be alot worse...I could have had a lot harder life...but sometimes I just do sit and wonder why..believe me I am greatful for all the things I have....but really...

I got diagnosed with a incurable crohnic disease at 15....becuase of the meds I was on I caught chicken pox when Asia got her shot for it..so I have shingles now something else that doesn't go away

As a result I have had 2 surgeries along with a ton of other invasive and embarressing procedures....I have had a 10 cenimeter abcess on my instines....the incision for my second surgey came open a Bryan had to stuff gauze in it until it healed from the inside out...and that is not even the half of my lovely relationship with crohns..

I had to have surgery to have my wisdom teeth removed and they damaged a nerve so my lip has been tingly ever since (that was about 5 years ago)

My first two pregnancies were ok...granted I gained no weight with Asia and fainted everyday with Roman for about 4 months then he was born a month early...

Bryan was in basic trainging during that time....I am happy he is in the military cause that is what he wants to do but it does but a strain on things at times...and he keeps moving from places and jobs I really like

and now we have the issues with Twin A...I am trying to stay positive but I have already planned her/his memorial service, I am scared to buy maternity clothes, every doctor's appointment I a terrified that I will get more bad news, I don't know if I should shop for two babies or one  and I keep bleeding....

I just don't know...I am sure this is all making me a stronger person...but  I thought I was stronge enough...

ok that is all of my whiney little vent post

 

[ajzuell]

May. 29, 2009 at 9:59 PM

Sorry Mama *HUGS* I know your going through alot.  Just try not to stress so much.  Try to take things day by day.  You are strong i know because you made it through so much already.  I'm still praying for you, your family, and those angels in your womb, take care, don't give up!

[fallenangel8508]

May. 29, 2009 at 10:17 PM

Aww hun! You have ever right to complain. I complain over way less lol. You are a strong woman to have made it through so much! I hope everything is ok with both of the babies. I agree with the mama above me, try not to stress so much. (as hard as that is i know!) Try to take it easy hun. :)

[mamaoftwins9197]

May. 30, 2009 at 12:11 AM

I seriously don't think you are whining.  You are going through serious, real stuff.  I can't stand when people bitch and moan about nothing.  Or when they try to minimize your problems/issues, because their lives are "so much worse".  Do what you gotta do to get through it, you know?

[shannonnlotuz]

May. 30, 2009 at 8:16 AM

aww i am sry to hear about baby a. what is the problem they say he/she is having if you dont mind talking about it? keep your head up. babies can come threw alot even when the odds are against them. just dont give up hope. and get all the possible doc care you can.

[tzmom]

May. 30, 2009 at 10:58 AM

I'm so sorry for all that you've gone through and are going through.  I can't imagine!

[MommyOfSprout]

May. 30, 2009 at 1:21 PM

Awwwwww i'm so sorry you have been having such a trying time. But please take it from me there is power in prayer and just have faith. La'Nyhia is proof that twin a will be ok. she was born when i was only 23 weeks and 6 days and she is a month old on the 4th of june. is she still in the nicu? yes is she doing good yess! God puts no more on us than we can bear  honey you are strong and when in doubt pray. For he will fix it

[texasmom1982]

May. 31, 2009 at 1:16 PM

Remember keep your head up  I too am dealing with some major crap right now not the same as you but everyone says God doesn't give you anything you can't handle but sometimes I wonder if I will make it through the day.  Hugs to you and the babies.

[lakensmom]

Jun. 1, 2009 at 9:01 PM

HUGS TO YOU LIFE ISNT FAIR AND IM SORRY THAT IS HASNT BEEN FAIR TOO YOU.

[badensmommy]

Jun. 1, 2009 at 9:11 PM

You are totally allowed to get it al out..Good 4 you whine all u want your allowed....

[3Grlz1AngelzMom]

Jun. 12, 2009 at 9:38 AM

you dont sound winey to me...  you sound very strong... some of us would not have made it thru so much as to do a post about it...