Looking at Nathan

[hazeleyes0606]

 As many of you don't know is I have three children whom I love so much. My oldest will be 5 on Saturday  the thought of him being five and going to school makes me want the time back. I also have a 3 year old daughter. Wow is she like in right now to the red head temper. My youngest is 1 and that would be Nathan.

 

My first son and daughter when I found out I was pregnant with them I was like okay great. No second thoughts on if the time was right or anything that pops into your mind. With Nathan it was different, we were really falling into hard times. I wasn't working we were about to be kicked out of where we were. I knew right away when I got pregnant with Nathan. I cried for about a week trying to think of  what we should do. I kept telling DH that we couldn't afford another child this and that. I was really thinking of giving him up for Adoption. I wasn't sure what to do at the time. I would never of had an abortion( I don't agree with that) because there are too many families that aren't able to have children...I finally came around to the thought of having another baby and said yes we are going to keep him.

I am ever so glad I did because you know what I look at him and laugh. If I even think of my life without him or even any of my children I wouldn't be complete if you know what I mean. When I look at him or hold him and think of what I said I cry because he was meant to be part of MY family not someone elses. Yeah I may not be able to spend a lot of money on them or a lot of one on one time with them all but you know what I LOVE them and wouldn't want it to be any other way.  Thanks for reading I know it was long but I had to get out.

[luvmyboys2]

Jun. 1, 2009 at 4:38 PM Aww, I never knew that...I know what you mean though, when I was pregnant w/ Lucas I was flipping out!! 1st off because he & Ian would be so close also because when I had the "big" scan they said they found 4 signs of down syndrome! they told me to go home & "think about what I wanted to do". I went home & cried my eyes out b/c I figured they wanted me to decide to abort him due to an illness or what have you.... I was so pissed. It was a hard decision in one way to think that I'd have a 15mo old & a brand new newborn, possibly with Downs... but Im so glad I didnt choose abortion after hearing what they told me b/c he is perfectly 100% fine.... I wonder how many people are told their unborn baby has downs & they abort!!! when infact that baby is probably "normal"... Ugh... Anyway.... You rock! Sorry for getting off subject there...

[hazeleyes0606]

Jun. 1, 2009 at 4:42 PM

Thanks, It is okay. I didn't know that either. He is doing great from what I see in pic's. Is he walking now?

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