What is the one thing that keeps you up at night worrying about it?

[Prosperity]

I know we all worry about our family - husbands, significant other and children and their health, happiness and well being, but what is the other thing that keeps you up at night?

Is it the bills?

Is it the lack of finances?

Is it your job?

How would your life be different if you didn't have to worry about that particular issue?

I used to worry big time about my finances. I would be so anxious that there would be piles of mail that went unopened. Sometimes I couldn't pay my mortgage. I'd screen my calls because I knew the bill collectors were looking for money, money I didn't have. I just stayed in bed, not wanting to or being able to deal with anything. I alienated myself from my friends and family, I felt like no one understood or cared.

It was getting so bad that instead of saving my pocket change, I was now using it to make purchases at the super market (I felt embarrassed having to count out pockets full of change). I felt like, just one thing, just one more thing and I am going to have a nervous breakdown. But, of course, there is always one more thing. The dryer broke, the boiler wasn't working right, etc. Little things, of course, but when you are on the brink of losing your cookies, the little things seem so enormous.

Now things have really turned around for me and I am so grateful. I hear my self laughing, I recently hung out with my girlfriends and we had so much fun, I nearly peed my pants. It felt good, really good to feel so light hearted again.

Maybe someone out there is going thu this right now. It's funny how when we are going thu stuff we feel like we are the only ones, or that our situation is the worse. In the grips of my hardest times, I began volunteering at a local soup kitchen. It really reminded me to have gratitude, sincere gratitude for every thing I have. I also liked being of service to those in need.

I have to keep reminding myself to get out of my own way, God has a awesome plan for me and I just have to trust and let it happen. For me it is about choices, I choose to embrace positivity, growth, light and love. Sometimes making one small choice can impact our lives greatly for the better. But a lot of times fear steps in the way; what if I do so-and-so and it doesn't work out? What if I fail? What if I don't succeed? I now realize that I can simply make another choice. The freedom is in my choices and I think that is awesome!

All the best,

Stacey

[kre4christ]

Apr. 25, 2007 at 10:15 PM

i used to worry all the time, especially about finances/bills until i suffered from major anxiety and then with medication, i got better....now, i have been mostly worry free for 10 years...a friend once told me...if you are going to pray, don't worry and if you worry, don't pray.

kim