ABOUT TO GIVE BIRTH FOR THE 4TH TIME & FREAKED OUT!

[hevans3]

So I have not been on here for a very long time. I believe the last time was when I said I was expecting my 4th baby June 28th. I wish I would have been able to post journals throughout this pregnancy because it has been a tough one. ( we moved like 2 times, no Internet and oh yeah this is  my boyfriends computer thats another story..lol) So I am due June 28th. I am very freaked out this time. I have horrible panic attacks and was on medicine but had to stop taking the xanax as soon as I found out I was pregnant. My zoloft ran out and my Dr. finally just gave it back to me. So the closer it gets the more panicky I get. I am afraid I am going to die while in labor, or while I am pushing. I am afraid of the pain this time like you would not believe! I have chronic back pain that has been horrible without my vicodin or soma.  I am afraid that it will be worse while in labor. Also I plan on having a epidural and I am afraid that I am going to end up paralyzed or something crazy. I know this sounds more then crazy and I keep telling myself that I am going to be fine.

This is my boyfriends first child. He has not been the most supportive throughout he pregnancy. His stupid World of Warcraft game generally comes first.  He has not bought anything for this baby yet. Basically everything has came from people giving it to us and the baby shower. ( my first shower out of all my kids) He doesnt act like he is very excited about this either. I did get pregnant while taking birth control so this was definitely not a planned pregnancy. He says he is soo excited to finally become a father. I just don't believe him. I am afraid that I am going to be stuck doing every single thing while he lays on his butt and dos nothing. My other three kids are older. My oldest is months from 12 2nd son is months from 10 and my daughter turns 6 tomorrow.  So I am starting over and it is scary.

I just think that there is so much going on so much more then what I am saying that just keeps me freaked out. My main concern is how can I deal with the pain of labor this time when I am soo freaked out by it? I mean I know what to expect I been through it 3 other times..lol.

ANY SUGGESTIONS WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED!!!

[momofsweetkids]

Jun. 4, 2009 at 9:12 PM

hey we are in the same boat i will add you as a friend if you want to and we can chat email instead of on here so we wont be bashed lol

[treystiredmommy]

Jun. 4, 2009 at 10:33 PM

i jsut had my first son 4 months ago and was terrified from the pain i was expectiong. but i got an epidural. i only flet pressure. i dont know if you had an epidural before but whne you do they hook you up to like 100 monitors so it would be pretty hard to die.  secondly my so was the same way during my unplanned pregnancy.  but when the baby came it took a little effort on my part but he finally stood up and put in his part and things have been good since.  he has his relapses once in a while but men dont get just what we got through and they probably never will.

[RNsteph]

Jun. 5, 2009 at 1:17 PM

I had three kids - My first two were both born naturally, no drugs.  The second one was so painful and horrible that when I was ready to deliver the third I panicked.  I got an epidural, very early in labor, because honestly, I didn't think I could calm down.  The epidural was a piece of cake - the only downside is you need to be monitored - but for me, it worked out great, I was much more relaxed, and had a really nice birth experience.